LUNA'S POV
It's been a few days since I was discharged from the hospital, a few days since I ended everything with Ace. He has been calling and I keep sending his calls to voicemail. I don't want to listen to anything he has to say, Ace always has his way with words and right now I don't want him to convince me into forgiving him.
It was very wrong of me to ever think that Ace and I could actually be a couple. What was l even thinking? Ace can never fall out of love with Sophia completely, she's his long time childhood friend and fiancé, he will always love her no matter what. I was a fool to think that he could ever love or choose me over Sophia. It has always been about Sophia. The reality of the truth stabs my heart like a thousand daggers and all I can do is cry.
I love Ace, I sincerely love him and I wonder why he can't just love me the same. Why is it always so difficult for all the men I ever love to love me back? What did I do to deserve this?
"Wifey" Asher calls from the door.
"Asher" I call as I quickly wipe my tears away. He walks into the bedroom and sits by my side on the bed.
"You're still crying"
"I can't help it Asher I just can't" I say as I sniffle tears.
"Come here" He takes me into his arms and gently strokes my hair.
"Why don't you just talk to him?" He asks calmly.
"No... I don't want to. I don't want to" I sent flatly.
"Are you very sure about that? Remember you didn't let him explain himself"
"Explain what exactly?, you saw the video Asher" I say as I cry harder. That video has been the only thing on my mind these past days.
Ace is nothing but a dick.
"I'm sorry Luna, I really hate to see you go through all this. I wish I could just snap my fingers and make all this pain you feel go away. I'm really sorry"
"Asher none of this is your fault so stop being sorry. Instead I have to thank you very much for being there for me all this time. Plus.... Asher I'm so sorry for ... for ..." I sniffle tears "I don't even know how to put it, but I just feel so guilty that after all these years of loving me, I have never ever considered returning those feelings. Asher I'm sorry that you always have to see me in this kind of situation, I'm really sorry for being a burden to you"
"God no Luna! You're not a burden to me. You have no idea how much love fills up my heart whenever you are by my side. You are still very young Luna and you are entitled to mistakes. I have never judged your decisions about the guys you choose and I never will."
"You're a good man and you deserve to be with a girl who loves you. A girl who will reciprocate all this love and care that you show me everyday"
"I don't want to be with any other girl but you Luna. Like I told you before, I will only give up on you when I see you walking down the aisle to another man but until then, I will be fighting to be that lucky man"
"You think the man who marries me will be lucky?"
"I know that he will be the luckiest man in the world. You are an amazing girl Luna. Totally amazing"
"Now I'm blushing" I chuckle in tears. "Asher" I call.
"Yes Wifey"
"Do you sincerely think that we can work?"
"What do you mean?"
"Well, you watched me date seven and now I'm pregnant with Ace's child, how is it even possible that your feelings for me haven't changed? How is it that you still love me?"
"Luna, honestly I don't know how to answer that question, I don't know how this is possible but all I know is that I love you, Jesus Luna with every day that passes, I can feel that love strengthen. I will wait for you Luna. No matter how long it takes."
"I don't deserve you, I swear I don't"
"Oh you do baby girl, you deserve it all."
"Thank you Asher, thank you very much for everything" I say as I hug him.
"For nothing sweetheart"
"I ...I..." I stammer as I disengage myself from his hug. "I have to prepare to go for my check up. Alora will go with me"
"What about Ace?"
"He hasn't called and I wish he doesn't, he's the last person I want to see right now"
"Alright then, I'll leave you to change."
"Thank you" He rises from the bed and walks to the door and then he turns to look at me again.
"Luna" He calls and I turn to look at him.
"Hmmm?"
"Can I be the one to ...."He starts to talk but I cut him off.
"No you cannot ..... sorry"
"Great" Then he leaves.
He was about to ask if he should take me to the hospital. There is no way I will ever let that happen.
This is the first time in months I'm coming for my check up without Ace by my side and it feels so sad. I sincerely miss him, all those times he would hold my hand and never want to let go, kiss my tummy and say hilarious things to it. The way he would cry whenever we did an ultrasound. It was all so sweet and I just wish things could be the same.
How could he do this to me?
To us?
All those sweet words and gestures, all those promises, he broke them all. I was a fool to believe him. If I am heartbroken right now, no one is to be blamed but me. I signed up for this so I have to suffer the consequences.
No one else but me.
"Alora, thank you so much for driving me here"
"Come on Luna, you don't have to thank me."
"I'll see you later."
"How are you gonna get back home?" She asks, concerned.
"I'll call a cab."
"Asher will freak out, besides its not safe"
"What would you have me do then?"
"Just call Ace, his responsibility to ..."
"NO! That's not going to happen. Just go on and ace that fashion competition, I will be fine"
"Call me the moment you get home"
"I will, I love you" I say as I hug her.
"I love you more drama queen"
"Alright then, got to go." I unbuckle my seat belt, open the door and alight from the car. She reverses the car and drives out of the hospital premises and I find my way into the hospital building.
"I am never getting used to this" I whisper as the sonographer rubs the special gel on my bump. I'm almost five months gone and right now I feel so heavy! I wonder how I'll feel when I clock eight months. I'll just spend my entire day sleeping.
"You'll be just fine, Miss Angelis" The sonographer assures me.
"Is it just me? Or do you also find it weird that we both have the same surname?" I ask curious and she chuckles.
"Such a cool coincidence, maybe that's why we get along so well"
"Sure" I say nodding.
"So, I've been meaning to ask, where's Mr. Ace? He never missed these ultrasound sessions"
"Uh...Ummm, he's busy. You know he's a very busy man"
"Oh, sure" She says with an unsure expression as she turns to the screen.
I can bet my life that she doesn't believe what I just said.
"Yeah"
Suddenly, the door creaks open and... and Ace walks in looking as hot and handsome as always in a grey Armani Suit and a pair of black shoes. He has his left hand shoved in his left trouser pocket as he majestically walks to bed I'm lying on.
My stupid heart starts racing fast and the butterflies in my stomach rise.
I still love him immensely, after all.
"What did I miss?"
"Oh nothing Mr. Ace, we were just about to start"
"Cool"
I almost faint when he leans closer toe and plants the most gentle kiss on my forehead. I die five times in the second.
He pulls the seat closer to the bedside and sits on it, then he takes my hands in his just like he used to do and kisses my tummy despite the fact there's a special gel on it.
"How are you two holding on?" He asks calmly and I swallow dryly.
"The way we should" I answer and he nods.
"So, can we commence?"
"Yes please, go ahead"
He urges and the Sonographer does her magical connections and my uterus appears on the screen. She places the transducer on my tummy and navigates it around and I see the image of our son on the screen.
"Oh, here he comes. He's so healthy" The Sonographer announces and I smile. So does Ace.
"Dr. Angelis, can you please excuse us for a few minutes?" Ace asks politely and she nods.
"Of course, signal me when you are done"
"Thank you"
Dr. Angelis exits the ward and Ace turns to face me.
"Luna" He calls and I look away. "Luna please look at me"
"So you can lie to me again?"
"I never lied to you" He defends and I turn abruptly to look at him . "I never lied to you Luna" He repeats.
"Then what do you call confessing your undying love for me today and sleeping with the fiancé you claim not to love the very next day?"
"About that Luna, I just don't know what happened, I wasn't in my right mind"
"Oh, when you kissed her? When you stuck your dick in her? Or when you ejaculated in her?"
"Dammit Luna! Just stop already. I'm sorry, okay? I'm really sorry that things turned out to be this way between us, but I swear, I swear on my unborn child that I didn't sleep with her on purpose. Luna I... I..." He bursts into tears. "I just love you so much that I would never betray you like that. I... I just wish you can believe me" He says with a croaky voice as tears spill violently down his cheeks.
Ace is actually crying.
Does this mean he's telling the truth?
No!
The reality still stands. He had sex with Sophia.
"Ace, let's just put all this behind us and accept that we can never work. We are still going to have our son and I believe that we are going to do a great job co-parenting him. It's very obvious that we are not meant to be together"
"Why is the universe against our union?" He asks sadly as he wipes his tears away.
"What if... what if it's us against the universe? What if we're the ones who keep trying to do something that can never happen? It's pretty obvious, this can't work. We can't work Ace"
"So, you don't believe me when I say I didn't mean to have sex with Sophia?"
"I'm sorry I don't. That video broke me Ace, I don't think I can ever trust you again"
"You have every right to feel the way you feel right now, but know this Luna, I love you with all my heart and I will never give up on you"
"I think you already did"
"That's what you think, but that's not what's actually there. I will sort this out"
"When have you ever sorted anything out? This is the same thing you have been saying from the onset of all this tribulations, but nothing has ever been sorted out. It's always from one crisis to the next. I'm done. Ace please, this is madness and it'll be good for both of us if we just end it. Please" I plead in tears and he closes his eyes.
"Luna" He calls as he opens his eyes. "Look me in the eye and tell me that's what you really want" He says, looking at me straight in the eye balls. I look at him intensely, with tears shimmering in my eyes.
What a dare!
"Ace I... I... I want us to... I..." Then I betray my own self by bursting into tears.
I hate myself for being so weak and helpless.
I'm supposed to be strong, I'm supposed to be mad at him for betraying my trust, I'm supposed to be setting barriers between us, but here I am, bawling my eyes out and yearning for him to comfort me in his arms.
I'm so pathetic.
"Just take me home" I cry bitterly.
"Oh Luna, Come here" He lies by my side on the bed and takes me into his arms and I don't protest.
Instead, I snuggle close to him and bawl my eyes out.
I'm nothing but a cry baby.