MAYRA'S POV
"WHO DID THIS TO YOU, MAYRA?"
His question ranged like someone had just splashed a whole bucket full of cold water over my head. My fingers went to my upper back and I slowly traced them over scars which were present there.
They felt warm under my cold fingers and then a sudden feeling of nausea hit me.
Pressing my eyes shut, I struggled to breath and mentally tried to avoid his question.
Please Rehan don't open chapters which were hard to close.
My whole body stiffened in a strange fear and only one name rushed up to my mind.
Jason.
I clenched my fists together and dared to open my eyes only to find Rehan looking back at me in confused expression. His eyes were reflecting the curiousness, confusion and to some extent anger.
"GIVE ME THE DAMN ANSWER." He hissed through clenched teeth and his expressions the second next turned darker when I didn't uttered a single world.
Looking at him like this, my breath hitched up and I tried to say something but couldn't found any suitable words. Automatically tears formed their way down to my cheek and after pressing my eyes shut, I shuttered "P-please Rehan. Just let it be." The hammering sound of my abnormal pulse started rising on the back of my head.
"Are you okay? Wait why are you crying?" His soft and voice full of concern echoed in the whole room and he cupped my cheek with his palm and tilted my head upward to directly look into his eyes.
There was nothing but care in his eyes and that too only for me.
His chocolate brown orbs were like bounding some strange spell over me to just look into them and at that moment, I realized that maybe this was the time to tell him everything about me. To tell him the things which I had never shared to anyone because deep down I have a feeling that confessing everything to him will help my heart to feel free.
I don't care about what he'll think of me after this but I am sure that at least there would be less secrets between us.
"Rehan." I slowly called his name to grab his attention and he arched up his eyebrows, with a little curling of his side lips into small smile. He softly ran his thumb over my cheek to dry the tears then placed a blanket over my body.
Everything around me turned into warmth that was radiating from his little smile and without saying anything next, I just wrapped my arms around him, embracing him into tight hug like my life was depended on him. He didn't said anything, just pulled me more closely to him by wrapping his arms around my waist.
The intoxicating smell of his Cologne rushed into my nostrils and I sighed deeply with my eyes pressed close in content.
"Promise me you'll not hate me after hearing what I am about to tell you." I whispered on his chest and after one deep breathe near my neck, he let out a throaty deep chuckle.
And then nervousness started clouding over my senses with thousands of questions jumbling inside my brain but most of all,
Will he think different of me?
"You are repeating my line. This 'will you hate thing' was my word and like you said I will never be able to hate you, that's what I am saying right now." He replied and started creasing my neck in a feather touch.
My heart burst with happiness and after placing a kiss on his chest, I drifted my mind to the memories of two year back.
FLASHBACK
"Jason, please listen to me." I said and placed my palm over his shoulder but he harshly shrugged it away and stared at me in rage.
I instantly took a step back from him but before I could go back any further, he grabbed my wrist and pulled me on his lap and wrapped his arm around my waist. I tried to wriggle myself but he held me rather tightly. I gulped down my saliva and shivered under his cruel hold.
"Do you really think if I will let that bitch go so easily after finding out that she betrayed me by slutting around with another man, then my mental turmoil will calm down?" He asked in a deep dangerous tone. I just stayed still and said nothing but when his lips touched my neck's flesh, I cringed in disgust.
"P-please. Don't." I stammered and again tried to get away from him but all in vain.
"I will destroy her. I will destroy that slut and that too in front of you doctor." He added with a chuckle.
"Hate will let you nowhere. Just forgive her." I said and turned my face towards him. He looked at me with smirk and that's when he pushed me on the bed.
"You think you could forgive me?" He asked with a wicked smiled and after looking at him, I realised that he's really up to something.
"Let's see Mayra. You could forgive me or not. Let's see your so called theory of love will take you to which extent." He added and again sat on the bed, pulling me on his lap and zipped down the zipper of my dress.
Every nerve in my body froze in fear.
"Don't worry, I will not rape you but my promise you'll regret the decision of accepting my counseling session." And then only I felt a cold metal like something tearing the flesh of my upper back.
FLASHBACK ENDS.
"Two years back I had to give my counseling sessions in Rehab. So there was this new patient named Jason." I stopped in middle and remembered the day when I first met him.
"When I first met him, I found that he had registered himself in Rehab to get over his drug addiction. I was so happy to know that he took one of the best decision of his life. I was the one to assist him and after few days we became good friends like we know each other since forever. He told me that he wanted to stop taking drugs only because of his girlfriend. He loved her so much. I was in awe that how much he cares for his girlfriend. Days were passing smoothly, he was so sweet and nice.
But then one day at midnight he came to my house looking sober but completely wasted.
I was worried about his condition, he just hugged me and disappeared for few days. I heard nothing about him but one day I saw him again in the Rehab and this time he was there due to depression.
He told me that his girlfriend had slept with someone else and she never loved him. After hearing his words I thought that he might be heartbroken but instead he was changed into someone whom I don't know. From the sweet Jason, he turned into cruel one who wanted nothing more than revenge. I tried hard to change his condition but he-he ....."
I said then took a deep breath after clutching his shirt tightly.
He ran his fingers softly through my hair giving me some comfort and I snuggled deeper to his chest. He blew out a warm breath near my neck making me shiver in delight.
"He again started taking drugs. He was lost and completely different. He started treating me different and one day he pushed the knife through my skin's flesh only because he wanted to proof that there was nothing like forgiveness in this world. He asked me to forgive him after hurting me." I added and this time his hold on my waist tightened and when I tilted my face to have a look of him, I saw that he was trying harder to control his anger.
"And you let him hurt you?" He hissed with closed eyes and I just placed my head again on his chest.
"And then without saying anything else he left me. I never heard anything about him since then." I said.
"HOW COULD YOU BE SO STUPID TO LET HIM HURT YOU? WHY YOU LET HIM AND ME HURT YOU?" He shouted and grabbed my shoulder to push me away and look at him.
At that moment something in me screamed to tell him that he was having wrong thoughts about me.
"You think I am stupid? You think saving someone's life is stupid? You think that fighting back is the only way to not get hurt?" I questioned by removing myself away from his hold and looking back into his eyes.
"Whole my life I was called stupid, pathetic, naive, weak and god knows what but Rehan when you have two path to choose from either of saving yourself or saving others than it takes guts to stand up for the second option. If that makes me stupid and pathetic then maybe I am." I whispered and tears continuously rolling down.
My heart clenched and headaches badly. I was tired of hearing same sentence over and over again but I've never expected such words from him.
Even after every single thing between us he still thinks that why I let him to hurt me? Why he couldn’t understand that I did so because that was all I could do to make him into the new Rehan?
"I wanted my friend Jason back and what if I had stood for myself. Will then he would’ve changed? You tell me Rehan will then you could’ve changed? I am sick of explaining every single time that it's my life and I will live the way I want it to be. I don't want to be reminded that I don't have to be weak. I am not weak nor stupid Rehan. I have brain but the only difference is that it functions differently from others." I added in a harsh tone and wiped my tears away.
Till now my breathing has turned abnormal and I couldn't even say that why I had burst in front of Rehan?
Maybe because I know that he'll heal me.
I know that just by a single smile from him, my tears will dry. His expressions were that of shock and there was some kind of shine in his eyes which was evoking the butterfly sensation inside my belly.
"No, Mayra. You are not weak, nor stupid and neither pathetic. How can I forget that if you were not like this than I might have never changed? You changed me, your different healing nature changed me." He whispered after running his thumb lightly over my cheek and wiping out the tears. I blinked and then after passing a soft smile to me, he again pulled me tightly into his embrace and rested his chin on my shoulder.
"You are mesmerizing Mrs. Malhotra just like any beautiful dream." He added in a husky voice making me blush and all weak from my knees.
I smiled and it really felt light hearted to share the thing which I waited for so long to let out. I don't know that where Kunal would be right now but with the hope he must be okay, I sighed.
“Rehan I want to tell you something more." I said hesitantly to which he just nodded.
I licked my lips and said, “I want to tell you the real reason that why I agreed to marry you."