MAYRA'S POV
Your lie might have broken me Mayra and I swear I don't want to hurt you but I know I will never be able to control myself from not hurting you, if you ever cross my path again. So that's why it would be better for both of us if you quietly stay away from me, forever.
I stood in front of closed door, outside. His words ran over and over again in my mind like an acid burning on all my thinking capacity. A sudden blow of chill breeze crossed my body and I shivered slightly.
Broken him. Hurt him. Stay away. Forever?
I blinked in confusion and closed my eyes shut to process his words. My brain started repeating his words several times before everything clicked in place.
He thinks that I had broken his trust? He thinks that I tricked him? He thinks that I was always Mayra Saxena? He thinks that whatever we had was nothing but an act? He thinks that for that project, I planned those seven days to distract him? He thinks that I hurt him?
No.
I parted my lips in shock and placed my fingers over my heart, clenching my top's material in between my fist. The abnormal rate of my heartbeat raced up.
He must be angry. He must be hurt. He must be feeling betrayed. He must be sad.
With my last thought, I almost felt like someone had passed a knife through my heart. The pain became unbearable. A strange feeling of suffocation filled over my senses and without thinking twice, I tapped on the door. Again and again.
"R-Rehan. Please. Open the door."
"Rehan?"
"Open it. Please."
"At least hear my side."
After few failed attempts, my eyes started filling up with tears and once again I harshly tapped on the door. Something in me told that Rehan was there. Just on the other side of the door. How much I wish to run to him and pull him into my arms, forgetting about everything else.
"Rehan. You said that you trust me. Just for that trust, please open this door." I pleaded again in a low voice and after few silent minutes, sound of clicking came and next I know I was facing Rehan who looked at me in hollow emotions.
Without even blinking, we stared into each other's eye. There was no warmth shared in between us but from the look into his eyes, I for sure knew that this time Rehan will not believe my words because his eyes were reflecting vulnerability. He was hurt.
"Why don't you just leave me alone?" He asked in a broken voice, clenching his fists.
"I don't have enough strength to once again get fooled by coming under the spell of your fake innocence." He added in a whisper which was more like he was assuring that to himself.
My heart stopped beating for few seconds. Everything around me seemed blur. I know I had not done anything wrong with him but why still it feels like I was responsible for all this? Obviously because you don't have enough strength to prove your innocence.
You are weak, Mayra. I shook my head as my inner consciousness started throwing taunts at me. No. I am not weak. I couldn't be weak. If I can change Rehan than for sure I can also make him believe that I haven't done anything wrong; I haven't tricked him.
"Look Rehan, you are drunk right now. So I guess this wasn't the right time for us to talk. Please sleep and we'll talk tomorrow." I said, trying to force a smile but failed to do so. The sound of his bitter chuckle erupted in the room for few seconds to which I looked at him, trying to figure out his reaction.
"Talk?" He said in a little annoyed tone and pressed his eyes shut, inhaling a deep breath.
"What else is left for us to talk about?" He asked in a dead serious voice and spat the word 'us' in disgust.
I bite my lips and found him now looking everywhere but me. His brown orbs were lifeless, without any shine. The way his eyes had glint up in those past days, the way his lips had curled up in perfection, everything about him was missing. And it all ached. My heart ached after once again witnessing the shine of his eyes, fading away.
"There is a lot to talk about ′us'." I countered back, rolling out 'us' in warm tone.
He instantly snapped his eyes in my direction and clenched his jaw. His eyes gets slightly narrowed in frustration or anger, I just don't know.
"Leave me." He whispered in defeated tone and rubbed his face with both of his palms.
"JUST FUCKING LEAVE ME, ALONE." He yelled making me flinch in shock by his sudden change in tone. I blinked twice to compose myself and automatically I took a step closer to him. He gave me warning look but by ignoring it, I took more steps till we were only few inches apart. I tilted my head to look directly into his eyes.
To my surprise I found him little uncomfortable due to our close proximity. He clenched his fists tighter and as he was going to say something, I said. "I am not going anywhere. Just in case if you have forgotten then let me remind you again that I am your wife."
For a moment of passing second, he stilled at my word with his eyes roaming my face like he was trying to read out my expression.
"You are my wife?" He asked which sounded more like a taunt.
I nodded curtly and that's when his lips curled into tainted smirk which was enough for me to take a step back and stay away from him but before that could happen, he pulled me closer to him by my waist.
"Okay then Mrs. Malhotra, let us act a little bit like husband and wife." He said in a mocking voice and next I know, I was lifted up in his arms.
My heart started hammering louder and my eyebrows furrowed in confusion. Something in me told that whatever he's going to do next, was not so good. As he entered inside our bedroom, he pushed me on the bed. I sat there dumbfounded while he closed the door with his feet. I gulped down my saliva and quietly went away from the bed. After reaching the wall, I stilled there and then let my eyes in his direction who was observing my every move with wicked smirk. This whole expression of Rehan, shocked me. It didn't felt right.
"Rehan?" I called out his name but he stared at me and walked to me. With one last look of my face, he smashed his lips over mine. As soon as his lips came in contact, my mind drowned in the pool of ecstasy. He roughly moved his lips against mine and unconsciously my fingers started moving through his soft hairs. Every nerve in me cooled down when he wrapped his arm around my waist, pulling me closer to him; if possible.
The minty-alcohol taste of him, exploded over my taste buds and for a matter of second, I forgot every single thing. He pulled my bottom lip in between his teeth and then shoved me away. I gasped in shock and looked at him, trying to calm my rapid breath. His smirk widened and after running a hand through his hairs, he clapped his hands twice.
"Tsk. Tsk. What a great whore you are? After all the fucked up tricks you played with me, now you are kissing me?" He let out his words which sunk into my heart. Tears already started rolling down and I stayed there silent; not having an idea what to say.
Whore?
Rehan till yesterday you were asking for me to kiss you and now just because I kissed you back, you think that I am whore? After everything we shared, how easily you can believe that I had tricked you? Not even once you've doubted? You said right that you trust me? Then how? How easily you can assume that I had done everything for snatching that project from you?
You know what Rehan? I think that you never even trusted me. Never.
I laughed painfully at the realization and wiped my tears away.
He shot me a look of rage, and once again pulled me closer to his chest, placing raw kisses over my neck's flesh. I cringed at his contact and this time, I didn't felt any positive emotions in response to his contact instead every nerve in me screamed to get away from him. He's forcing himself on me to release his anger? I wriggled under his hold and with shaky fingers I tried to push him away but he tightened his hold around me. He then pushed me to the wall and interlocked our gaze before passing a cruel smirk at me.
My body started shaking in fear and next in a swift moment, he pulled my top apart. As the realization hit me that what he's going to do next, I shook my head and tried harder to let myself out of his hold which was irking me.
"Re-Rehan. D-Don't." I pleaded but he didn't paid any attention to me and started placing kisses on my shoulder blade. His rough fingers moved over my bare back and then he unclasped my bra. My breath gets caught up in my throat, and all I did was to cry. Cry to save my dignity from that person whom I love the most.
"Rehan. Please."
"Don't. Please."
As his lips started moving over my naked body, I felt disgusted more than ever before. Please don't do something Rehan, for which I will be unable to forgive you. I can accept your every torture but don't do this. I can happily give you my body if you want but not like this. Not like this when anger has blinded you and you are completely wasted.
I clutched his sleeves tightly and tried to push him away. With his every touch, I felt more uncomfortable. But after several attempts when he didn't stopped, I closed my eyes shut and for one last time after collecting all the strengths I had, I pushed him away. He stumbled on his feet and his eyes met mine but instantly I averted my eyes away from him and fixed them on the floor. I tried to cover my body with my arms and the salty taste of tears touched my lips.
"I-I..." His thick voice trailed behind and next to my periphery I found him opening his shirt button. Once again fear built inside me and I shook my head in a no but instead of doing anything, he placed his shirt over my bare body and took a step back; maintaining a breathable distance between us.
My heart fluttered at his action. When I glanced into his eyes, there I found guilt followed by anger and hurt. I pressed my lips together when he started looking at his feet.
"I didn't.. I-I.. " He again tried to spoke but failed.
"It's okay." I whispered when in reality nothing was right. Nothing.
I just wanted my carefree and happy Rehan back.
"NO." He screamed and sat on the floor in defeat. His expression turned into blank and he placed his palms on his face. Deep sound of his sigh founds its way through my ear and with that I also sat on the floor, fixing my eyes at him.
"It is not okay. Nothing will ever be okay." He spat.
"Why? Why me Mayra? Why you did this to me?" He added in a broken voice making my breath hitched up.
"I had trusted you but what you did? You just broke my trust, not even once you thought that it was never easy for me to build trust on others? But for you I did. I trusted you more than myself." He whispered in a faint whisper and chuckled dryly.
My heart clenched and again my realization was wrong. I was wrong to think that he never trusted me. He did. And maybe due to misunderstanding he thinks that I broke his trust.
Rehan. Now I will not blame that why you always jump to the conclusions because now I know that you do have trust issues. Maybe something about all this mess had triggered your past memories which caused you to accept the fact that I had betrayed your trust.
"But no problem. Not at all..." He chuckled even louder.
"It was all my fault. My fault to trust you and even think that you are going to stay with me. I should have thought earlier that like everyone you will also not be a constant star in my life. Like everyone, you'll also leave me and see you did. You also left me broken." I clenched my fists at his words and let my tears to flow.
He was broken. His heart was broken.
I chanted that word again and again till my heart accepted it. He is not going to believe me. Not when his senses are clouded with hurt of betrayal.
How I am going to fix him?