REHAN’S POV
"Mayra please. Don’t leave me alone. I need you. Please.” I pleaded, holding her warm wrist in between my finger.
She looked at me with a soft smile making my lips twitch in content but then a second next, her smile disappeared from her beautiful face and with a blank look she pulled her hand away from me.
“No. Please. Don’t go.” I said but it was too late. It was too late for her to not leave me alone.
“Why? Why would I stay Rehan? You are nothing but a nightmare. My worst nightmare. You know what let me tell you everything today, I had never cared for you. You mean nothing to me. Nothing. After all who will want to be with a disgusting person like you?” She said bitterly and laughed.
I stood there frozen. No words formed in my throat.
“You are right Mayra. He doesn’t deserve anything but pain.” Suddenly a second voice came behind her and I found Zara.
“Your Mayra will also leave you like everyone else does.” Max said and stepped out from somewhere.
“You’ll never be happy, my son.” Mom’s voice echoed in the surrounding.
"You are murder. You don’t deserve happiness in your life that’s why Mayra is leaving you.” Dad said and suddenly all of them started laughing.
“STOP. PLEASE STOP.” I yelled, pressing my fingers tightly against my ears but still those voices hunted in the back of my head.
I parted my eyes and found myself on my bed. Everything went silence, only the sound of my abnormal breathing was making some noise. I pressed my fingers over my forehead and found several sweat beads. For a minute, I stayed still trying to process that what actually happened.
Another nightmare?
I sighed in frustration and buried my face in the pillow trying again to sleep. But all in vain. There was no way in hell to ignore the truth that I was only able to sleep peacefully when I was in her arms. Without fear of the nightmare in her healing arms, ecstatic sleep had automatically followed. It was so beautiful. Everything was mesmerizing with her.
Like a dream.
Never had I felt that much happy in my life. It was like every nerve in me wanted to make peace with my past to savor the delight of living my today with her. I sat on the edge of the bed and unlocked my cell phone, instantly the wallpaper of her smiling face caught my sight.
I blinked after watching her angelic smile, the second next my jaw started clenching and without thinking twice I threw the cell phone on the floor. It gets completely shattered. I stared at particularly nowhere.
Lie.
Everything was nothing but just a lie. Just a fake act. Her care. Her words. Her smile. Her kisses. Her concern. Her trust. Her prospective. Her innocence. Everything. Every single thing about her was nothing but just a fucking lie.
She was a lie.
How easily she tricked me in her fake sweetness?
The person whom I trusted more than anyone was not even the one I thought her to be. She wasn’t that innocent, that sweet, that caring. It was all trap. She was a trap. She played her role so smoothly that not even once she let doubt to enter in my eyes.
I told her not to break my trust. But she did.
She broke my trust.
I took a deep breath as something weird happened in my chest. It felt like my chest was going to explode. The heaviness was so uncomfortable. I somehow managed to rub my palm over my chest but with the constant image of her in my mind, it hurts more.
Mayra Saxena.
I laughed dryly at her name. Her name was the only reason why she stepped into my life to make it all upside down. She wasn’t the one who was orphan instead she was the daughter of that Saxena. That’s why she played all games. She agreed to marry me because of that fucking project. That project for which I had waited for so long. I wanted that land because it was from where everything has started. It was the place where I shared my life with my little sister.
All those bittersweet memories were buried there. Since the day I’ve lost everything was the day I wanted that land. Through the project, it was my only chance to get what I wanted from so long. But now nothing will happen. Nothing.
The only reason behind being this successful was to one day achieve this project and now even that slipped away from my hand. Like the way, every single person slips away from my life.
She only married to me so that she can fool me in believing lies and then help her father to won the project. In those fucking seven days, it wasn’t happiness which she gave me instead it was the trick she used against me to distract me from all of my office related works.
Fuck. It was all my fault. It was all my fault to believe in her fake act.
I should have known that there was no one for me and for sure there will be no one for me. I must live alone and suffer in pain. It was so stupid of me to think that I can also be happy. I for sure don’t deserve happiness. After all the things which I had done, how could I hope about happiness? It is clearly not my thing. But why? Why you did this to me Mayra?
Why you played with my emotions? I was living in pain but then you came and brought new peace in my life. But now what? Now what I am supposed to do? How am I going to survive my pathetic life now? How am I going to live without you?
You brought light into my darkness but in one blink you pushed me into tunnel of darkness, forever?
Tell me how? How am I going to live with the fact that you tricked me? After giving me some peace, you did a very well job of snatching that peace away. After making me realize that person like me can also feel happiness, you left me to believe that I can never be happy.
How good it was just to be in your arms, to wake up next to you in the morning and remember how good it was just to be with you. Never had I craved for eating anything that much until it was the food you prepared for me with your hands. The way you blush during kissing me, was one of the prettiest sight I’ve ever seen.
Fuck. I know I sound like a broken mess but how I can I ignore that I was the broken mess until you passed me your sweetest smile?
After all this. How can I easily swallow this fact that everything between us was nothing but just a lie? Am I really this bad that no one can ever stay by my side? Well Surprisingly, I don’t blame you. I fucking blame myself for trusting you blindly. I thought that you were the only one in my world who wasn't selfish. I was hypnotized by your fake innocence. For few days only, you took my every pain away. You were my personal drug. You were becoming my, everything.
I laughed bitterly as flashbacks of those times which we shared together started crossing my mind.
FLASHBACK
“I have no one Mayra. Only I’ve got you. If you will also hate me like everyone then....never mind.” I said in a flat tone, my lips twitched in bitter smile.
She knitted her eyebrows and brought my palm near her heart.
“Are you hearing this?” She questioned with a weak smile and instantly my eyes snapped in her direction. I looked at her then my palm and then lastly held an eye contact with her.
“Can I hate my heartbeat?” She asked again and I searched her face to find what she meant but after few moments I slowly shook my head
That’s when her smile went bigger.
“This heartbeat is for you. So if I couldn’t hate it then how can I hate you?” She said softly and I get almost startled in shock.
FLASHBACK ENDS
A faint smile plastered on my face, remembering the best moment which I shared with her. She said that she’ll never hate me. But after today I don’t feel anything but hatred for her.
Everyone hated me.
There was no one for me. And somehow I wholeheartedly accepted this fact that no one could ever care about me.
I was always jealous of all those employees of my company because every day they came to office in the morning with a hope that at night they will return back to their home where someone might be waiting for them. And on the other hand, I never had anyone to tempt me to go back at home.
But then you came Mayra.
You tempted me to come home and I felt that why all those employees were so happy to return back from the office. You brought aliveness in my house simply by your presence.
But tell me, now what? What should I do now? Now where I’ll go after returning back from my office? This house will never be home again, without you.
You also left me.
I was always scared. Scared that one day you’ll leave me because I had experienced. I had experienced the worst pain of losing every important person in my life. But then you said that you’ll be forever with me.
And now? Now like everyone else, you also left me broken. First you came and healed my broken soul then you left such wounds which could never be healed. Because you were my heal Mayra.
I exhaled a deep breath and rubbed my face with my palm in frustration and walked downstairs because I didn't have enough strength to sit in that room where everything reminds me about her.
Gulping down another bottle of alcohol, I stared at the pictures which were attached on the wall.
Something in me itched after looking at them. Pictures of us which were nothing but a victim of her act. I swallowed the dry lump down my throat and pushed the pictures on the floor. She played with my emotions just for that project? And here I was going to give up my company so that I can live peacefully with her, without any complications. That company for which, I worked like there was no tomorrow. I was ready to leave that company for her. At least she has shown her true colors before that day would come.
Suddenly I snapped away from my thoughts, when the faint sound of someone’s footstep entered in my ear. I turned around and instantly my stomach started twisting at the sight.
She was there in front of me?
I rubbed my eyes to clear the confusion that is she really here or it was just the alcohol which was playing tricks with my senses but after few minutes when she didn’t disappeared, I was confirmed that she was actually here.
For seconds my mind stopped working and everything in my craved just to rush to her and took her into my arms. To kiss her like there is no tomorrow. To hear her melodic voice. To watch her beautiful smile. But then one by one everything started coming up together. Her reality. The reality where she wasn't a sweet and innocent Mayra instead she was the clever and lair Mayra Saxena.
Mayra Saxena.
My mind started filling up in rage and disgust towards her. The hatred for her increased a way more than before and I couldn’t stopped myself from stating, "So you do have guts to come in front of me after everything.”
I watched her carefully and even after all the shit, she was still acting with all confused and innocent look. Doesn’t she know yet that her parents had told me that she was their daughter?
“THE FUCK, JUST DROP THIS SICK ACT.” This time, I yelled in irritation and how innocently she flinched away?
“W-what h-happened Rehan?” She stammered in shock. I clenched my fists harder.
What the fuck is wrong with this woman? She thinks that I will believe in her again? I looked at her and started taking stone steps towards her. She stayed still at her place. Wow. Isn’t she too good at acting? I plastered a smirk when I stood near her. I stared into her eyes but this time, there was nothing that I felt like earlier. I was plainly disgusted that how can she make up all the lies and even now she continued her great acting skills.
I clenched my teeth and after grabbing her upper arm, I dragged her to the main door.
Through my periphery I found her looking at me with off course fake crocodile tears moistening her eyes.
“Your lie might have broken me Mayra and I swear I don’t want to hurt you but I know, I will never be able to control myself from not hurting you, if you ever cross my path again. So that’s why it would be better for both of us if you quietly stay away from me, forever.” I said in a void tone and after having one last look of her beautiful face, I shoved her outside.
You were closest thing to me, Mayra. Closest to my heart. But I forgot that the things which I want are the things which are always snatched away from me.
I sighed and chuckled.
Guess what. Now there is no one to pull me back from the darkness. Maybe I was destined to be alone and live in my past forever. Basically the old Rehan was back and this time with more pain stabbing in my heart than ever before and all because of her.
I am a nightmare. People always leave.