“Well before that, where is my journal album?” I ask him, re-directing his own question. I will get my stuff back from the girls soon, where the heck were they anyways. Was I really so horrible, if I am, then they are about the get a full smack of my own sas.
He go up my bed and ran to what I assume to be his room, he came back not even a second latter, when he gave me the album, I asked him to get my portable picture printer, he gave it to me and I started printing pictures. I knew they became horrible memories but I loved having pictures of my life, my parents never had a single picture of me with them. I love pictures.
“To answer your question, he was a dear friend, when I moved to my dads pack he and I met again, he was with a date so he would’t look stupid there in the meeting. He confessed he had a crush on me and I had one on him too.” I try hard to say those words as I print the last pictures from my cell, the ones I have the strength to print.
“Is he one of the D’s of that specific day? By the way I am calling it your Doom Day D’s. It’s fitting.” that made me laugh with nervous feelings, like a big relief to my moment in life.
“You are really creative. I need to know, why Turquoise?” I wouldn't let this pass by, I wanted a change but never like hair paint or stuff like that. But he looked good in the blue, he reminded me so much of Charlie Matthews, with longer hair in turquoise and blue eyes, werewolf genes are something else.
I start placing my pictures where they go, “I don’t see pictures of Samie here. Not so close?” Neo asks me. “I never loved the idea of twins sharing everything and being a one mind person. So I have my own stuff.” Was my response to him in a flat voice.
I place my album away, I look at Neo and I decide to make a truce. “Okay, here is the deal. Are you single?” my voice was straight forward.
He laughs “I’m single. She found her mate, I have yet to find my own.” I knew it.
“Okay, then if by the time I don’t have a wolf you do not find your mate, you're my bud.” I put my hand out and he starts doing the Chandler Bing dance and I just laughed out loud, he stops and shakes my hand. “You got a deal, pretty lady.” he smiles at me.
I take my hand back to lean flat on my cheek with my body on his body, having my head under his chin. “Now I need to go confront Samie.” I say those words and as usual she appears, ever since I can remember her responses to that in any method she can. “You are looking for me?” she asks, leaning in my door frame.
“That is creepy.” Neo says and I look at Samie.
“No, I said, I need to confront you. What are you?” I ask with zero tolerance, I have had enough. I need answers.
“I think your mom should answer this, not me. Since you are fine I will take my leave” she actually turns and leaves. I get off Neo and go behind her to get her attention but she is not in the hallway.
“Where did she go?” Neo asks as he steps behind me.”I have no idea. Get dressed, we are going to my mom.” I tell him and he goes to do so.
After closing my door, I take out a long sleeved green shirt, shorts, socks, my combat boots and a set of underwear. I go to take a shower, as I get undressed I cringe at seeing food fall from my chest, then as I take my hair, parts of chips fall, great.
Turning on my boom box I place my music. I take out my kit of wax and I take my time at self care, if I am going up against my mother I will need to feel good about myself. I don’t deserve this, I will not accept this.
I take a long hot steamy shower, as the water goes all over my body, I contemplate on the song that is on, singing the song of psycho has my mind thinking on overdrive. I clean my entire body, feeling my skin smelling like the ocean is the best thing ever, and I am shaved fully, these days have made me feel like a bear in hibernation. I put all my strength into not signing the song that has me thinking on how I am going to deal this day. I just had a fight with my parents and then the line hits on the song, my voice just goes full thank you Post Malone.
I need to figure out why my mom is being like this, why did she never had a kid with Dante, who the fu** is Samie, who is C’s boy? Poor guy will have it difficult, Crissy is the kitchen's chef daughter, she has no sisters, only brothers 4 to be exact and she has been treated like the princess because she is the only girl in her family, her grandma was the last girl born before her.
Showers off and I am out to put on my clothes, I put my hair up in a ponytail, I make my makeup simple but cute, I go for cute cause sexy is over rated in my opinion, I wonder if my wolf will let me feel like a sexy woman when she arrives?
I feel like I can do this to move forward, I need to do something, clearly feeling depressed is something Neo will not let me accept. Did I do the right thing in having a buddy to not be alone or have I finally lost my marbles?