I sat there staring at Jimmy with lips apart, fear gripping me. What am I supposed to say? Should I lie to him? or just admit the truth and deal with what follows.
“Jimmy…” I tried to speak, deciding within me to reveal the truth.
“Wait!” he suddenly halted and then he sighed and looked away. “I know, you must be mad at me for asking such a question, I don’t know what I was thinking. You don’t have to answer that, it was very wrong of me to question your character after everything that we have been together, please pardon me.”
I heaved a sigh of relief, even though I felt bad that he saw me as a saint while I was really not. Maybe it was for the best that this secret remained safe with me, but for how long would I be able to keep it a secret?
“It is alright, Jimmy.” I said in a soft tone, “Let's just forget about it.”
He nodded and looked away. There was silence between us for a while and then he looked my way again. “Anna, we are good, right?”
I replied with a nod, but deep down I was feeling uncomfortable. My mood was ruined for the night, and the thought of keeping such a secret from him was depressing.
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Arriving at my house that night, it was late already and so Jimmy was going to sleep over. The awkwardness from back in the car was still lingering in the air, so I thought it would be best to rush to bed.
We usually bathed together whenever he was sleeping over but tonight I went in first, I just had the shower pour down on me to wash off the make-up on my face and with a quick scrub, I was done. By the time Jimmy went into the bathroom, I was already dressed in Pajamas.
I quickly went to lay on the bed, hoping to fall asleep before he came out, but that didn’t happen. I couldn’t fall asleep with all that guilt inside of me, I rolled from one side of the bed to the other. When I heard the bathroom door opening, I quickly lay on my side and closed my eyes; if I can't fall asleep, I can at least pretend to.
Shortly after, I could hear Jimmy climb the bed, he lay beside me and tried to pull me into the spoon position. I groaned softly like he was bothering my sleep but that did not seem to keep him away.
After cuddling from behind, I felt him kiss my neck and I thought maybe if I didn’t show any reactions, he would stop and let me sleep. I stayed mute while he kissed my neck and then I felt his hands grab my boobs and squeeze from the shirt.
I groaned, there was more pain than pleasure. I was expecting my period in a few days so my boobs were heavy and hurt. Jimmy began to unbutton my shirt and I gently tried to take his hands off with a little groan to express my disapproval amidst my fake sleep, but that did nothing to help me.
I didn’t know how to tell him that I was not in the mood without hurting his feelings, especially after what happened earlier in the car. He completely unbuttoned my shirts and I felt the cold against my skin, giving me goosebumps.
His hand moved from my boobs down to my stomach which he massaged gently, even though he was going slowly, I knew this was not going to be just pre-intimacy, the end goal was to penetrate me. From my stomach, his fingers went down to my pajama pants and I felt him untie the ropes and dip his hand down there.
My lying position seemed to form some restrictions to the movement of his hands and so he gently rolled me over to lie on my back, I still kept my eyes shut, trying hard to sell the pretense. I couldn’t just snap my eyes open or it would be clear that I was pretending the whole time.
I felt his mouth on my tits as he sucked my nipples, gently at first but then more intensely. I felt pain run through my nerves and I groaned, gently pushing his head off. He moved down and kissed my belly button and then down to my waistline.
He got up and raised my knees to create space, then he got in between my legs and slowly pulled down my pajamas. I wasn’t wearing anything under, so it exposed my vagina to him, he took the pants off completely and I opened my eyes just in time to see him toss it off the bed.
“Jimmy… wait,” I said in a whisper, but he was back to kissing my neck.
I could feel his dangling manhood touching my thighs and pussy as he kissed my neck. Usually, I should be moaning right now as my necks are very sensitive but that wasn’t the case today, I was not even two percent horny, the whole thing was off, I was too depressed to feel any of that.
I felt his hand rub me down there and I made a fake moan, just to satisfy his ego. I really didn’t want to annoy him as I was already wronging him in many ways and my conscience was hunting me for that.
I held his head as he kissed all over my necklines and then I felt the cap of his penis rubbing against my Vagina. He was trying to penetrate but I was dry and so it wouldn’t go in.
“Jimmy… stop…” I said with a low growl.
I don’t think he was hearing anything I said because he didn’t stop for a second, he kept trying to push it in while bathing me with kisses.
I felt the cap of his dick push into me and I cried out in pain, bending my waist to push further away from him. “Jimmy, it is hurting me,” I said in a mumble of words, afraid it out loud.
“That is because you won't relax, what is wrong?” He asked as he broke the kiss for a second.
I was scared that my words had annoyed him and so I shook my head to signify that there was nothing wrong.
“Just relax,” he muttered and went back to pushing his dick into me.
I felt him rub a liquid on my entrance and I guessed it was saliva, then he pushed it in. I bit my lips to avoid crying out as he thrust into me, it was as painful as hell, even more painful than the day I lost my virginity.
I heard Jimmy groan as he began to thrust in and out of me. I grabbed the sheets and gritted my teeth, muffling my sobs. Tears rolled down my eyes but I tried to hide it from him.
It wasn’t long before I felt him shoot his seeds into me, that was the shortest sex we ever had but I was glad it was over. As he fell to the side of the bed exhausted after climax, I pulled the blanket over my body and turned my back to him while I cried myself to sleep. This was one of the worst nights of my life, and if there was anyone to blame, it was Maxwell Blackwood!
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