Silhouette
"Hey, come on, drink this." I turned to Third when I heard it from my side.
He sat beside me before handing me the water in the bottle. I reluctantly took it from his hand.
"Baby, come here, let me hug you," he whispered before signaling me to come over.
I immediately leaned over him, he quickly wrapped his arm around my waist and hugged me tightly.
I close my eyes tightly as my tears flow.
"He's gone ... He's gone, Third. Pow Pow is gone," I whispered crying.
He gently stroked my back. The more I cried because of what he was doing, the more I thought that I would never see Pow Pow again.
I felt like a balloon out of breath, unable to stand up and talk to other people. Everything is useless, because he already left me. Everything I fought for was meaningless.
I decided to stay alive for him, to make him feel better because I love Pow Pow so much.
I decided to stay alive because I want him to feel that I am always here by his side. But now my life seems meaningless again.
I can't even feel anything, I am already numb. I can no longer feel, I can no longer understand.
"I'll let you cry and mourn for him, just for now, Silhouette. You're not getting any better for the past few days, you're not on your own anymore," Third said.
I bit my lower lip. "I want to go with him, Third. I want to see him a-again. I want to hug him tightly again."
I couldn't stop sobbing and sobbing.
I miss him so much.
He tightened his grip on me. "No, I'll never allow you to do something bad, baby. He's now in a better place, okay?"
I wiped the tears from my cheeks but they were still being replaced by new ones.
"I'm so jealous of him, Third. I'm jealous of Pow Pow," I tearfully admitted.
"Baby, stop saying that."
"He's now in a better place, I know. He can finally breathe there freely, without any agony. He's with the angels up there, and now, he's one of them. But every time I think about it, the k- "My condition? I feel like I'm going crazy, Third. I'll be left alone again, I don't have anyone with me anymore," I said.
Her breathing got heavier as she kissed my hair. He touched both my cheeks and kissed me on the forehead.
"No, baby, you're not alone. I'm here, okay? I'm here, I'll never leave your side. I will never do that, I will die first before you get away from me." I sighed.
"You're saying things, like you're so sure that h-we're not going to break up, Third. Don't you think about the possibilities? There are a lot of relationships that break up because they're bored, and you, you're the type of guy who chaos and squabbles with women. You will get tired and tired of me, "I whispered.
She moaned at what she heard. He let go of my arm before tweaking his own hair.
"What did you just say?" he asked incredulously.
"When we break up--"
"Nothing like that will happen!" he shouted angrily that I almost backed away.
"There's a possibility that will happen, Third. N-I'm just scared." I sobbed again. "I'm afraid of being left alone again, Third. If I used to be able to, yes, but now, I don't know what I'll do when you're gone too. I'm just talking about the p-possibility, so if you feel like it, you'll get tired. You will be with me someday. Leave me now. "
He clenched his jaw in anger.
"I'll let you say those things for now, because you're going through something. But that will never happen again."
"T-Third," softly calls yes to him.
He looked at me while his expression was dark, even though he was angry his caress on my cheek was still tender.
"Baby look at me. Look at me, please," he begged.
I stared into his eyes in tears. He bit his lip before kissing my lips.
"I'll never get tired of loving you, Silhouette. Okay? Listen to me, baby, please. I will never love another woman besides you, the moment I committed myself to you, I have already decided that you're the one I am willing to spend the rest of my life with. Even if a few more women push me, I will still love you and you. I will still pull you and you closer to me. " I cried harder because of what I heard.
"Really? Really? Legit, no lies?" I asked sobbing.
He nodded. "I swear on my own grave, baby. Nothing will happen to divorce, no matter how many times you tell me that, I will never allow us to separate. You're only mine, Silhouette. You are my property, and I'm all yours as well. "
I embraced him tightly. I don't want to let him go the way I hugged him.
"Don't you ever leave me, Third. I can't afford to lose another one, please?" I whispered, almost begging.
He kissed my ear. "I'm afraid you might do that thing to me, Silhouette. I'm afraid that you might leave me soon. You have the highest chance of breaking up with me. And I'll do everything for you to stay by my side whatever it means, even if you have to distance yourself from me. "
I don't know why my chest throbbed harder at what he said.
Why would he say that if he was not at fault for me? If he does nothing wrong to me?
Third knows me, and I know he knows I don't mind young people. I will only separate from him if he has committed a serious sin.
I shook my head to clear my mind.
I just smiled sweetly before looking at Pow Pow's ashes.
I'll be fine here, Pow Pow. Enjoy your life up there, I'll never forget you.