Harmony
“Jaheim,” I whisper.
My walls tremble like crazy as I try to adjust to him and my heart is racing enough to make me pass out. We're finally doing this and it's everything I never knew it would be. It's like my love for him has just multiplied a thousand times in a single moment.
As if now we’re truly mated in every sense of the word.
I take him deeper with the next roll of my hips and moan with how good he feels inside me. He might be too big for me to cope with now, but I still feel that he’s been made for me. Dick has always been just dick to me, but this is all the way different. This is my mate and the person I’ve been spiritually joined with.
And that’s changes everything.
My heart flutters when he whispers my name, just how he did when we attempted this the first time, and when I open my eyes, the look on his face makes me feel overcome with emotion. I can feel his hands trembling on my hips, and the short intakes of breaths that land in quick succession on my chest; he might have his eyes closed but his emotions are unmistakable.
“Baby? Tell me how you feel.”
He opens his eyes and my heart miss-beats from the look he gives me. “I can’t…” His voice is so thick. “…don't stop.” His hands finally rise to explore my aching skin, my thighs, my waist, until he finds my heaving breasts. My nipples are so taut when he twists them in his fingers that I whimper, but it momentarily gives me something else to focus on other than the throbbing between my thighs that still hasn’t eased.
He is so damn big.
I rise and fall, slowly, adjusting to him more with each roll of my hips. I'm so fucked up with everything I’m feeling right now that I'm clinging to my tears so I don't burst out crying.
He's barely moving, and I know it must be hard for him not to. This is testing his control to new measures, I know, but his restraint is just another thing that makes me love him even more.
“Tell me how I feel inside you, Harmony. Tell me how I make you feel.”
I lean forward to kiss him, tasting me on his lips. “So good, Boo. So, so good.”
His hands find my back to pull my body closer to his. He kisses me back softly and then his mouth finds my neck. “I love you so much, Princess.”
I hold him tighter and close my eyes. “I love you.”
He moans and my tears fall; my feelings for him being laid all the way out. He begins to move beneath me and we silently set a steady pace, our bodies moving perfectly in sync. Both cautious and both keeping to our own restraints.
He moans when I gently bite his neck, and I gasp when he pulls me closer by my ass and I take more of him. The pain that comes before the wave of pleasure is mind-numbing. I've never experienced sex like this in my life. I want him over me. I want to feel his body, to watch his face while he thrusts inside me, but I don't ask. I can’t push him. He's put me in control of this for a reason.
So he doesn't hurt me.
I begin to build inside. His penetrating look of desire makes me shudder. This is what it must mean to be cherished by someone. To be so precious to another person that they put your wellbeing, your safety, and your life above their own.
He leans me back and he's deeper again, making me cry out in both pleasure and pain, but he quickly lifts me slightly before circling my bead with the pad of his thumb so only pleasure ripples through me instead.
I tighten inside when his teeth capture my left nipple, and I instinctively move faster to get myself to climax. He groans and the hand on my ass drags me forward, making my back arch as I feel myself almost there…
“Oh, God, Jaheim...”
“Are you gonna cum on my dick, Beautiful?” His tongue swirls around my peak and then he sucks. Hard.
Fuck! I gasp and feel the first strike of ecstasy fire through me. “Yes...”
“That's it, Baby, cum for me. Let me feel you, all of you. Fuck, you’re gripping me so tight… I can feel you cumming so hard.”
Lawd, the way he sounds makes me shudder.
I look down and fist his hair; his eyes are so dark and feral, it adds to the shudders my body’s already suffering. He groans along with my gasps for breath and my pussy tightens more; those sounds are so fucking hot… I clench so hard on his dick, too, it’s like I've locked myself around him, but I get carried away when I hear him growl, and I’m left speechless when I lower too much.
“I'm gonna cum inside you. Deep inside you…”
I ignore the stabbing in my belly and moan my reply; I don’t wanna ruin this moment for him; he’ll stop if he knows I’m hurting. He holds me tight against his chest as he starts to fire off, but his dick throbs so forcefully, it makes me forget the pain, and instead, sets off another climax inside me.
It’s like a damn vibrator.
“Princess,” he breathes, my name sounding like the sweetest prayer on his lips.
God, it makes me shudder.
I silently thank God that he hasn’t prolonged any of my orgasms this time because I couldn’t have taken it. I feel fucked up; both mentally and physically. And I think he knows, cuz he keeps his arms around me for ages after we both finish.
My pussy is beyond sore, and not just on the outside either but deep inside. I’m dreading when he pulls out cuz I know it’s gonna hurt like hell. I don’t think it would’ve been so bad if it hadn’t been so long since I had sex. I literally feel worse than a fucking virgin right now.
But no matter how much pain I’m in, I’m still euphoric because we finally did this.
And I’m still alive…
He slowly loosens his grip. “Let's have a bath. How sore are you?”
“Sore.”
He looks up and blinks. “Why didn’t you tell me to stop?”
“I didn’t want to. A bath would be good.” I slowly lift off him and whimper when he’s fully out.
“Jesus, Harmony. I’ve hurt you.”
“No you haven’t. I did most of the work.”
His eyes darken. He’s not buying it. “Where’s the blood?”
“No. Just run a bath. I’m sure it’ll feel better in the hot water.”
“Princess…”
“Honestly. If it still hurts after, then I’ll take it. Please.”
He sighs before he disappears.
I clench my thighs together while I wait for him to return. I even check to see if I’m bleeding, but thankfully I’m not.
Ugh…
Jaheim comes back and lifts me off the sofa, and then he’s quickly lowering me into the jacuzzi bath that’s half full of warm water and bubbles that smell like vanilla. I rest my head back on the edge and open my legs, but it soon becomes obvious that I’m gonna need Ella’s blood.
I think I’ve done some permanent damage…
I look up at Jaheim and know he can tell that I’m not okay.
“Where is it?”
I sigh in defeat. “In the zipped compartment in my suitcase.”
He returns and hands me the vial. “I didn't want you to have to take this. I thought I was careful…”
I lean forward so he can get in behind me. “You were careful, Boo.” I unscrew the lid. “Ella said I should be fine after the first time.” I knock back the blood and immediately feel the pain disappear. Thank God… “All good.”
“That's it?”
I throw the vial into the sink and then rest my back against him. “Yeah. The first time I took Abriya’s blood I was unconscious for two days. It kinda rewires your genetic makeup…” He wraps his arms around me. “…when you're human it has all the same healing attributes.”
He's quiet. “So it won't be like this every time?”
“No.” Hell, I'm hoping not. “I don't wanna have to take this again. I want the reminder that you've been inside me.”
“So do I.”
***
We order midnight room service and then lie on the bed watching shit TV. Jaheim hasn't attempted to fuck me again, but I did suck his dick before we got out the bath.
I look at him and see he’s about to fall asleep, so I cover him with the blanket and rest a kiss on his forehead. “I love you, Boo.”
“I love you.”
I feel tired, too, but I also wanna text Ella. An uneasy feeling settles in my gut when I think of just how much input she had into Jaheim not killing me earlier. Not just that, but I hate to think how he’d feel if he found out.
I get out of bed and after silencing my phone, I type out a message to her.
Me: You awake?
Ella: I don’t sleep anymore.
She doesn’t sleep anymore? The fuck?
Me: Since when?
Ella: A few weeks ago. What’s up?
Me: I wanna ask you what you did to Jaheim earlier.
Ella: I didn’t. I didn’t need to.
Me: But I thought you said you’d need to get involved?
Ella: I did, but that was to make sure you didn’t run your mouth or try to rush him into doing shit he wasn’t ready for. The first time was always going to be the hardest for him. If I hadn't of said you were gonna die, then you wouldn't’ve been so tentative, would you?
Me: No, I wouldn’t have.
Ella: Exactly. I say things for a reason, Har. He did good. I know it hurt this time, but it won’t be like that again. Aura and I have decided to make certain allowances because of how much Jaheim’s been through, You still need to be careful, so don’t think you can start pushing his buttons without consequences. Take your time with him but have fun, too.
Me: Thank you, and I will, trust me. I know his needs come first. Tell Aura thanks for me, too.
Ella: She knows. Gta go kratius now. Talk later. Ly. xxx
Me: Be safe. Ly2 xx
I sigh in relief. Thank fuck for that.
Now I just gotta convince him to fuck me again.