Nikolas places kisses on my neck gently, caressing my flat stomach with his fingers
" I love you," he whispers as he continues to kiss me
His kisses are gentle and sweet, they feel so good but a shiver goes down my body as I remember how Mario violated me two week ago, I can't do this I feel so dirty and unworthy. I push him away shaking my head, he frowns coming close but I take steps away from him
" Please don't," I breath in and it hurts me so much, Nikolas is looking at me with longing in his eyes, I can see his hard member through his pants. My chest is raising and falling, I tug my hair in annoyance, why do I feel this way? I gaze at Nikolas again, his expression shows confusion and worry, he loves me and he wants to be with me but I just can't and I don't think I will be so I need to do what's best for him
" I want to leave," I blurt, I need some time away from them, I'm not in my right mind.
' No you're not!' chimes my wolf, gosh, she irritates me. She will hate me but I need to do this.
Nikolas' eyes are whether in shock or fear I don't know.
" Please.. Ava... don't do this," he stutters, coming closer but I stop him with my hand. My wolf howls painfully, her pain and agony Is mine and I know she will never forgive me for this.
'No... Please,' begs my wolf, her voice is sad and I feel her bad.
" Look at me, I can't be with you," he shakes his head and hold my cheeks gently, he deserves to be with someone better.
" I'm not the woman for you Nik. I thought I was but after Mario..." I trail and kiss him gently, Nikolas stays in his shock, looking at me as if trying to understand the situation. I continue to talk
" He touched me. His hands, fingers. I can feel them on me, " my voice is strained and dry. I bath a thousand times a day, but I can still feel them, his voice and breath, I loath that man and I hope he is rotting in hell.
I leave the room and go to my daughter's, I kiss her and watch her sleep, she looks so beautiful. I turn off the air condition and cover her before leaving, I'm not in a mental state to mother her right now, Nikolas will take care of her for a while, he is an amazing father.
I carry a small bag pack and jut downstairs, when I reach the salon when a voice stops me.
" You're just going to leave her as well?" I twist my neck to look at Nikolas on the staircase, he looks a mess and his eyes are red and a memory of the day I pepper strayed him comes to mind.
" I'll visit. I promise," I smile,
" I don't want your promises! I want you to stay here! Aviana you are still the woman I fell for," he declares, he comes to me at full speed, he's close I can feel his breath
" Don't leave," he whisper pulling me in his embrace, I wrap my arms around me closing my eyes
" I swear, I won't touch you, just don't leave me, I will wait until you're ready," his voice sounds desperate now, but that's it, I don't want him to put his life on hold for me, I want him to live.
" Don't do that please," I pull away, he opens his mouth to say something but before he can, I use my speed to leave the house, with my sensitive hearing now, I can hear Nikolas screaming, I lean against the door, crying.
He continues to scream and break things.
" Nik!" I hear Jeremy and Kat's voice, I silently cry for the hurt I caused him.
I don't know how long I stayed there but I only left when his siblings managed to calm him.
..
" Hey, Ava, " Greets Troy . I came to there house when I left mine. Their apartment is a three bedrooms, a beautiful living room, and a kitchen.
Aaron hands me a cup of coffee I take it gratefully, they hold each other looking at me from across the sofa. It's been a week since I've been here.
Troy sighs and comes to hug me.
" You'll be fine," I nod
" I am sorry, I just didn't know where to go," I apologize for the inconvenience I'm causing them.
" This is your home, you can stay here as long as you want, Miss Ava," smiles Aaron.
Later in the evening, I go to bed. I keep turning and tossing, Nikolas hasn't called me today. I wonder why, he always calls but I don't pick up and my wolf hasn't been talking either.
Whenever I try to start up a conversation, all she does is snarl at me.
' mate, mate, mate,' is all she says.
I want my mate. I want him too and these feeling I have for him is overwhelming.
Yesterday Xavier invited me to train with him and it felt good. Releasing this pent up anger I feel for Mario.
Later in day, I go to the mansion to visit my baby. I press the doorbell and to my surprise it's my mate who answers.