Jenny’s POV
I kept to myself the entire evening that day.
I stayed in my room and didn’t get out of it, until dinner time.
I was worried sick about what was going down tomorrow.
And no matter how many promises Alex makes to me, and how confident he sounds about his plan, it’s still not enough to calm me down or reassure me.
I was sure I will remain like this until it’s all over.
I was a total jumble of nerves, and I decided to stay in my room and hide it from everyone else.
It helped that no one bothered me after I came back from my walk with Alex.
He also disappeared to get himself ready for tomorrow.
I assumed he would tell Lucas at this point, or even his mother. But he said he can’t tell either of them until the last possible minute as to not alert David at all into warning his father.
If it was up to me, I’d skip dinner all together and stay hidden in my room, I didn’t have any appetite in the first place.
However, when Alex came back into the room and extended his hand to me to join him outside, I couldn’t resist.
He could sense how nervous and scared I was for him.
But he was trying to act tough and brave in front of me.
I don’t know if act was even the right word.
I didn’t know if he was really super confident about the outcome of tomorrow’s plan to be guaranteed and in his favor.
Or if he was even scared at all or afraid or even considering the possibility that he might actually die for real tomorrow.
We had a quiet dinner, and as much as I wanted to go back to my room once it was over, Alex kept a firm hand over my shoulder and steered me towards the living room after it was over.
I looked at him quizzically and he just gave me an admiring look without saying anything.
We all sat around, near the fire place.
“I’m glad you decided to join us this evening Jenny. Your presence is always welcome and encouraged. I don’t want you to ever feel like a stranger here. This is your home too” Diana said warmly.
“Thank you Diana. It has really become my home. I would even dare to say it’s much warmer and more welcoming than mine ever was. And that’s basically, because of you and everyone else here” I said honestly.
Diana smiles gently but I could see the hidden questions behind her eyes at my statement.
Alex was the only one who knows how much I hated my life in that house that I’m ashamed to even call home.
I’m sure I will confide in her too about this, someday.
At some point during our gathering, Alex addresses Lucas and David to prepare for tomorrow’s smuggling operation.
I notice David’s hands slightly trembling over his hold on his cup of tea.
But he doesn’t speak or say anything at all.
It was rather disappointing, I was really hoping for him to come clean to Alex about this.
But he was really going through with it.
I guess I was naïve in the end.
Alex notices how on edge I was and decides to call it a night for us.
We say our goodnight and leave them to head into our room.
I hear Lucas saying behind us mockingly “Keep it down in there, the walls are thin in this house, I don’t want to have nightmares about you two going at it”
“For the last time, Lucas! Stop with this nonsense!” Diana chastises him strictly.
Just before we rounded the corner, I turn my head back towards them, make sure Diana has her back to me, look straight at Lucas, and flip him off discreetly before we disappear into the corridor.
He was bringing out the bitchy side of me I never knew I had before.
I heard him cough roughly on his tea and I felt triumphant to causing that reaction.
“I saw that” Alex smirked at me when we entered the room.
“Your brother is an ass that’s really starting to make me feel regretful for forgiving him in the first place” I complained.
He came over and put his hands around my neck as he said gently “He’s an ass I won’t deny that, but it’s when he really loves someone, he becomes that unbearable ass”
I narrow my eyes at him “So you’re saying, it’s because he loves me and accepts me as his sister in law, that he’s being intolerable?”
He smiled and nodded his head.
“Great, I should feel lucky then” I said dryly.
“I don’t think I should be worried about standing up for you anymore. You seem to be handling him quite well” he teased.
“You know what else I can handle? Right now?” I asked seductively as I put my arms around his back and brought him closer.
His eyes sparked at my tone as he asked with a raised eyebrow “What?”
“Your dick inside me” I whispered daringly.
I never thought I would ever be able to say those words so boldly to anyone in my life, but here I am, horny as hell and needing him so damn much, especially tonight.
I needed all of him tonight.
All his love, his touches, his kisses, all his emotions.
Anything he could give to me, I needed it all tonight.
Because I was scared out of my mind, and only his presence with me was keeping me sane right now.
His smirk deepened at my clear vivid demand and he said in a flirting tone “It’s all yours baby, I’m all yours, forever”
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Alex’s POV
I wake up in a panicked state to the sound of Jenny’s alarm going off.
It was morning and we were sleeping next to each other.
I was spooning her from behind.
As soon as I registered what was going on, I sprinted up and jolted her awake.
“Jenny! Wake up! Can you hear me?”
She groaned and her eyes started fluttering.
I cupped her face gently and said “Your alarm went off, did you forget your insulin last night?”
She shook her head as she checked her watch sleepily.
“It’s high, but not so much, don’t be scared” she said reassuringly as she stopped the alarm right away.
I breathed out as I said seriously “I am scared, why is it high?”
“It happens sometimes Alex, there are no specific reasons for it” she said vaguely.
But for it to happen today of all days wasn’t a coincidence.
Her alarm hasn’t gone off once ever sense she woke up from her infection that day.
For it to happen today gave me all the answer I needed about the exact reason for this hyperglycemia.
I got up and went to her side as she adjusted her back against the headboard.
“I can do it” she said firmly when she saw me preparing the insulin pen.
“I want to” I said tenderly.
After it was done, I held both her hands and looked straight into her beautiful green eyes.
The glasses she always wore were not doing her eyes justice.
They were so alluring and mesmerizing, she looked sexy too with the glasses on, don’t get me wrong, she was sexy in all her conditions. But there was a certain charm in her eyes that the glasses were always obscuring or dimming down.
“I know why it’s acting up, and I know you know why” I said firmly.
“I thought we weren’t going to lie to each other anymore, or hide stuff again” I said with reproach.
She breathed out a heavy sigh and said emotionally “I wasn’t lying, it does happen out of no where sometimes, I swear. But maybe this time, it was probably related to my fear for you. I’m worried sick about today Alex”
“I told you there’s noth….” I start to say reassuringly, but she cuts me off as she snaps at me “nothing to worry about? Yeah that doesn’t cut it for me Alex. I physically cannot stop worrying until I see you coming back home in one piece tonight and nothing you say will make that worry go away. Because no matter how much you promise me that it will be safe, you and I both know it's not at all, not when guns are involved”
Her tears threaten to fall down and I know she won’t be reassured by anything I say or do to make her believe that I will come back unscathed from this, only my return will calm her down.
“The only way I can keep my focus is if I know you’re okay. This is not okay Jenny, you’re letting your concern for me affect your health, I need you to be stronger than that and I know you can be, I saw it many times, your strength is pretty bad ass” I said gently.
She pursed her lips and touched her forehead to mine.
“I will try I promise. I want you to keep a clear head out there, don’t think about me, think only about yourself and about your vow to me. The one you made to me in that place before we saw the northern lights” she said solemnly.
“I will keep it, you can count on it” I promised as I brought her lips to mine in a passionate kiss.
We break it after a while and I ask her warily “Are you okay, after last night? Anymore pain?”
She shook her head with a sweet smile “We’re all good from now on”
Last night, she asked me to make love to her and I couldn’t bring myself to deny this fiery angel anything she asks of me.
I was afraid to hurt her again when she only stopped bleeding so soon, but it turned out to be okay.
I didn’t see any visible bleeding after we were done and she said she only felt a friction of the pain she experienced from her first time.
“As much as I would love to repeat what we did last night, right now, it will definitely make us late for breakfast. Unless you want to give Lucas another opportunity that is” I said playfully.
She chuckled and I couldn’t picture anything more sweet than the sound of her laugh.
“God no, I think we’ve given him quite enough to last us for years” she said lightly.
“I’ll see you at breakfast then” I said as I printed two kisses on her dimples.
“I’m coming right behind you” she said shyly.
I love how she can still be shy around me, after everything that happened between us.
I use the bathroom first then let her go in there as I wear my usual black jeans and black blouse.
As soon as I open my room door to head out, I find David right in front of me with his fist raised in the act of attempting to knock on my door before I opened it.
I looked him over quickly and immediately decided that he looked like shit.
He obviously didn’t bat an eye since last night, judging from his attire that he was still wearing from last night, dark circles under his eyes, and his red orbs.
“David” I addressed him rigidly.
His presence right in front of me at the beginning of my morning wasn’t very wise of him to do, and I was clutching the door handle very tightly to keep my cool.
“Alex….I need to talk to you. It’s extremely important and I need to talk to you somewhere private, away from this house. I don’t want Lucas to hear this with you because he will react before he lets me finish whilst you will hear me till the end” he said seriously.
I narrowed my eyes in suspicion at him.
Was this a new trap he was leading me into with the assistance of his father?
Or was he doing what Jenny was expecting him to do and confessing his sins because he no longer wished to be a part of his father’s sick game?