I kissed him back, wound my arms around his neck, and tried to show him the same passion that he was showing me. I didn’t know if we were going too fast and honestly, I didn’t give a fuck anymore. I love Nick. I wanted him with every fiber of my soul.
I may be new to being in a serious relationship but it didn’t matter. I love him. He loves me. And I knew that I no longer feared the ghosts of his past, because honestly, I created them, made them bigger and scarier than they actually were. And I almost lost him because of my own insecurity, my own paranoia. I would not do that again. I wouldn’t hold anything back anymore.
Suddenly, light exploded above us, interrupting our kisses. I pulled away from him and stared up at the glass ceiling. I saw fireworks erupting in the skies, mirroring the exploding emotions and love that I have for this man.
“Wow,” I said in amazement.
“You like it?” he asked.
I blinked back at him. “You didn’t do that, did you?”
He shrugged. “What if I did? A guy could hope for the best, couldn’t he?”
I laughed. “Oh my God, that is just the most amazing thing ever.”
He leaned forward and kissed me again. Then he stared at me with a serious expression on his face. “Say it again.”
I couldn’t help smiling, amazed at how much he needed reassurance about what I feel for him, as if it was as important to him as the air he breathes.
I tiptoed and touched his forehead with mine. “I love you, Nicholas Atkins.” Then I leaned forward and touched his lips with mine, giving him one lingering kiss.
When I pulled away, he had a big smile on his face. Then he gave me a mischievous look and said, “Now that we got everything cleared between us, there’s something I wanted to do since the first time I laid eyes on you.”
I raised a brow at him, “What?”
Without warning, he scooped me up in his arms and carried me to bed. Then he replied, “Something that will never make you say that we’re ‘just friends’ ever again.”
I laughed heartily. Soon after he settled me on my feet, and my laughter was swallowed by his passionate kisses.
***
Nicholas gently settled me on the bed and sat beside me. He looked at me, his eyes dark with desire as he pulled the tie around my robe. I eased out of my robe and he slowly looked down my body. My pulse was hammering.
Before, I never cared how my body looked like. In my previous encounters, it had never been about me. I was never the object of desire or the source of passion. It had always been about the other person. I may have experience with sex, but this, I was totally new to this. I knew how to give, but never knew how to receive.
Nick leaned forward and kissed my lips. I followed his lead and kissed him back. I gently placed my palms against the hard muscles of his chest. It was different touching something tougher, harder and yet, completely sexier.
His lips traveled along the lines of my jaw and to my neck. The straps of my gown slid down my arms. The moan that escaped my lips was completely involuntary as I anticipated what was about to happen. I realized, there was nothing to be afraid about being with Nick.
I am ready. I trust Nick. I will be fine.
He leaned back so he could look into my eyes as he gently pulled my nightgown over my head. I turned away, afraid to look at him, as his eyes feasted on my naked body. Then I took a deep breath and willed myself to finally look at his face. His eyes were as dark as the desire that had completely enveloped him.
He leaned forward again and as his lips were an inch away from mine, he whispered, “You’re beautiful, Mackenzie. You drive me crazy. I’m not going to wait anymore.” Before I could utter a word, he devoured my lips as his hard body pushed me against the soft mattress.
I felt his hands against my breasts as he cupped them. He teased the pink tips between his fingers and I fought the urge to scream. I felt him against me; there was no denying his arousal, his desire. Liquid heat rushed between my thighs, and I knew, I could not fight the burning passion that had completely taken over my body.
Nick’s lips traveled down from my neck to my chest. Another moan escaped my lips as I felt his wet kisses against my breast. I fought the urge to scream as he tasted one tip and then the other. My arms involuntarily wrapped around his head as I hugged him to me, asking for more, but not knowing how to say the words.
I didn’t know that his hands have traveled down until I felt his fingers touch my core, feeling the wet evidence of my own arousal, my desire to be with him.
His lips traveled down, leaving a trail of wet kisses on my abdomen. I felt him gently peel off the last piece of clothing on my body. When his lips touched the most sensitive part of my feminine being, I couldn’t help but moan his name, louder this time, in a voice that I could barely recognize.
“Nick…”
He explored my core, his tongue and fingers alternating between massaging and ravishing. I was completely lost with no desire to ever be found. I have never felt like this before, and I never knew desire could be this strong, this potent that it could force you to oblivion.
“Nick…”
My body was getting more demanding. I wanted something and I wanted it urgently. Nick was feeding my lust, fanning my flame as if he was born to satisfy me. I felt him curl his finger inside me, hitting that sweet spot as his lips sucked in my sensitive button. He pushed me toward the edge.
“Fuck, Nick!” I screamed as I entered the gates of Nirvana for the first time in my life. It was strong. It was forceful. It lasted for a couple of seconds, but it felt as if I have been satisfied for an eternity.
It felt as if I may have blacked out for a few seconds. When I finally caught my breath and opened my eyes, I stared back into Nick’s handsome face.
He smiled at me and said, “I love you, kitten.”
I smiled back at him shyly. I put my arms around him and pulled him to me. “I love you too. I want…” I struggled to catch my breath. “I want to satisfy you, too. But I haven’t gone down on a guy before.”
He grinned at me and then he gently kissed me on the lips. “There will be a time for that. It will be my pleasure to teach you how, but not tonight. Right now, I want to be inside you. I’ve waited long enough. I want to know how it feels to be one with you.”
I nodded, completely understanding what he meant.
When he put his weight on me, I felt that he’d already taken off his pajamas and underwear. I felt his length against my folds and I could feel desire start to burn in me again.
“You’ve had sex before, right?”
Yes, I have. Oral sex is still sex, right?
So I nodded.
He kissed my lips as he positioned himself in my entrance. He was rock hard I could feel his head stretching me. “I love you,” he whispered again and before I could even respond, I felt him spear through me.
The tearing pain that spread through my body felt as though it would split me in half.
“Shit!” I cursed.
“Fuck!” I heard Nick curse at the same time.
Then we both fell quiet, afraid to move or say anything. When I opened my eyes, Nick was staring at me with a bewildered expression on his face.
“You said you’ve had sex before,” he said.
I took a deep breath as I looked away sheepishly. “I lied.””
Nick closed his eyes briefly and when he was looking at me again, his eyes were fathomless. “You mean, I’m your first?” He sounded as if he couldn’t believe what he was saying.
I nodded. “Yeah, the only guy I have ever been with.”
He suddenly had a proud grin on his face. “Wow,” he said. “Let’s keep it that way, okay?” Then he leaned forward and kissed me again, gently but thoroughly. He took a deep breath as he leaned his forehead against mine. “I’m sorry, kitten, but I need to move now. I will try my best not to make it hurt.”
I put my hands on his neck. “It’s okay, I’m ready.”
He withdrew his length and remained only an inch inside and just as gently, he went in again. I braced myself for the pain that would come. Nick was staring at me intently. He was studying me, gauging my reactions, measuring the pain that he was inevitably causing me. But I couldn’t let him stop even if he wanted to. I was tougher than this. No amount of pain would be able to stop me from sharing myself with him completely.
The wetness in my core made the penetration easier, much less painful than it should be. And as Nick moved in me, the pain slowly subsided, replaced only by more heat, more moisture. I have never seen a man’s member before. I didn’t even see Nick’s yet, but I could definitely feel that he was huge. He was filling me completely, touching my inner walls in all the right places, until the pain was replaced by pleasure.
“Oh my god, Nick,” I moaned. “You’re so big.”
He crushed my lips with his as his thrusts became faster, more urgent. “Damn! You’re so tight, kitten,” he moaned against my lips.
He continued to move within me. Every thrust was harder than the last; each time was more intense.
Now, I knew that sex could be enjoyable. I never did before because I was with the wrong person. It was as if I was seeing the world in black and white and I thought that was it. But when Nick came along, my world suddenly became a whole rainbow full of colors.
Nick was not just connecting to me physically; he was one with me emotionally. As I looked into his handsome face above me, he mouthed “I love you” before his lips once again descended to bruise mine. I knew we weren’t having sex. Nick was making love to me. As he buried himself inside me, I could feel that he wanted to be as close to me as humanly possible.
“Nick, oh my god, please…” I heard myself begging. My whole body was on fire. I felt pressure deep inside my core while Nick’s thick and long shaft pressed hard on it. I wrapped my arms around him, wanting him to hit me harder, take me higher. “Nick, please...” I begged again but I honestly did not know what I was begging for.
As he looked at me, lovingly, I could tell from his face that he was trying his damn best to hold on to his own hunger and delay his own sweet ending so he could give me mine first.
I leaned up so I could kiss him on the lips and I whispered his name again. “Nick…”
“I know, kitten,” he whispered back.
The fire was getting bigger, my body was getting hotter, and my flight was getting higher. I could feel it coming, could totally sense its force. I was afraid it would consume me, scared that I wouldn’t be able to handle it.
Nick’s pace was getting faster, his breathing was becoming more labored as he tried to control his own release. One, two, three deep thrusts and Nick once again pushed me to oblivion.
“Nick, I’m… I’m…” I struggled to say the words as I felt it completely take over me. “Oh my god! Nicholas!”
I screamed his name as I hugged him to me, using his body as an anchor so I could find my way back after I jumped in to the pool of pleasure that only Nick was able to give to me.
I leaned forward and put my mouth against his shoulder, trying to suppress the loud moans involuntarily coming out of me. Nick moved faster, riding me through my orgasm, making it more intense than it already was.
I didn’t know how long it lasted, but it was definitely longer than the first one. I opened my eyes and stared at Nick’s face. The look he gave me was dark and possessive as primal desire completely took over his mind, his senses.
He looked deep into my eyes and in hoarse, guttural voice, he said, “You’re mine, MacKenzie!”
I nodded gently. “And you are mine,” I said.
“All yours.” He gave me one satisfied grin before his face turned serious again. He moved faster, harder, penetrating my body and invading my soul. Then he speared me in one hard, final thrust and I felt his body shake as his weight fell on top of me. He took my lips in his and held on to me tightly as he allowed his own pleasure to take over him, take over us. I felt a new wave of satisfaction in knowing that I did that to him. I gave him pleasure.
He lay still on top of me. I had my arms around him, cradling his head against my shoulder. I could feel his heart pounding in his chest, and I was pretty sure he could feel mine.
He propped up an elbow and stared at me for a long moment. Then he said, “That was amazing.” He leaned forward and gave me a lingering kiss on the lips. “I love you.”
My heart felt as if it would burst inside my ribcage. “I love you, too. Thank you for making my first time really magical. And happy birthday, babe.”
He smiled widely. “Best birthday gift ever,” he said and then gently, he pulled himself out of me. He lay in bed and he pulled me to him so I could rest my head against his shoulder. We both stared at the starlit skies above us, visible through the glass ceiling.
“This was the very first hotel I ever designed. My friend’s father owns this and they wanted to make a signature penthouse fit for honeymooners. When I created the concept, I never knew I would be using it someday to share a magical moment here with the love of my life.”
I smiled. “You did great for your first job. I don’t think I will ever forget this place.”
“I don’t think I will ever forget tonight,” he said. “You were amazing; everything I dreamed you would be.”
I propped up my elbow and looked at him. “I didn’t even dream of you. I never imagined something as amazing, as wonderful as this.”
Then I noticed something on his shoulder. There was a bite mark on it. It was red and swollen. I bit him when I came. I didn’t even realize I was hurting him.
“Oh my god, Nick, I’m sorry,” I said, touching the mark gently with my fingertips.
Nick looked down at his shoulder.
“Does it hurt?” I asked.
He gave me an arrogant grin. “I made you do that to me. Right now, nothing can hurt me, kitten. I’m invincible.”
I laughed. I leaned forward to kiss the mark on his shoulder. “I’m sorry.”
“So next time you introduce yourself to any of my friends or relatives, you’re going to tell them that you’re my girlfriend, right?” he asked in a teasing tone.
I laughed. And before I leaned forward to kiss him, I said, “Sir, yes, sir.”
I leaned my head against his shoulder again. He hugged me to him. I took a moment to appreciate the candles around us, burning high, like the passion we just shared with each other.
“How did you arrange the candles and the flowers in the room?” I asked.
“I had the staff scatter the rose petals and put the candles beforehand. After I showered in the other bathroom, I lit the candles and waited for you to find me,” he replied.
“And the nightie you made me wear? Was that from the hotel, too?”
I looked up at him and he smiled at me sheepishly. “I bought that for you that day you went shopping for lingerie with me. Do you remember?”
I remembered. During my first days of staying with him, we went to a mall to shop for my clothes. He bought something from the lingerie shop.
“But you said it was something for your sister.”
“Beatrice hates purple. And why would a guy buy a nightie for his sister?”
I propped up my elbow so I could look at him. “So, it was for me all along?”
He smiled and nodded. He pulled me by the nape so he could kiss my lips.
“Well, I guess dreams do come true. No matter how far-fetched they seem to be.”
I smiled against his lips. I couldn’t agree with him more.
“So, Jen lied about you being quite adventurous,” he said, unable to wipe the proud grin off his face.
“Oh my god, I don’t know what possessed her to say all those things,” I said. “I guess jealousy made her a manipulative bitch.”
He pulled me to him and gave me a tight hug. “I don’t care. It didn’t make a difference to me. Although, I must admit that finding out I was your first actually felt surreal.”
I rested my head contentedly against his shoulder. Then I looked at the stars above us. The skies were clear, the stars were shining brightly. I blinked and I thought I saw a star flash through the skies. They said that if you see a shooting star, you should make a wish. I already knew that wishes come true but I could not ask for more at this moment. When I closed my eyes, all I thought was, Please make this last forever.
And with a guy like Nick, I knew the chances of that wish coming true were really high.