I was silent for a few seconds, not sure of what to do next. I had blocked his number but he must have gotten a new line to contact me. Why was he so desperate to be back with me when he had acted like he had no more love for me just a few weeks back? I had found out that he was cheating and confronted him but he didn’t even act fazed, he had no regrets or remorse.
“Anna… I know you are there, I can recognize even the faintest sound of your breath.” He said and I found myself blushing. Why does he always know what to say?
I knew that I would be making a terrible mistake if I didn’t end this call right now and block his new number. I would be taking a lot of risk by just talking to him, he was either a very sweet talker or I was easily wooed.
“What do you want, Jimmy?” I finally spoke. Like I said, I am totally going to regret this.
“To congratulate you on your new job, I am very happy for you, only if I could be there to show you just how excited for you I am.”
I furrowed my eyebrows and quickly looked out the window, to make sure that I was alone. “How did you know about my job?” I asked curiously.
He laughed softly and my heart skipped, everything about this guy had so much effect on me, “Baby girl, you know I have my ways, we may be apart at the moment but I will always look out for you.”
I scoffed and rolled my eyes like he could see me. I was not comfortable with him knowing about my new job when I haven’t said a word of it to many people. Was he spying on me? What else did he know? Did he perhaps know about my agreement with Mr. Blackwood as well?
As much as I was eager to know how he found out, I didn’t want to appear desperate. “I hope you are not spying on me? Did you put a camera in my house?” I asked, feigning seriousness.
He burst into laughter for a few seconds and I must admit, it felt good to hear him laugh; the soothing sound of his voice did things to my heart.
“Relax, that would be an invasion of privacy and could land me a few jail months. You know too well that I fear jail the most, I wouldn’t do something like that.”
“Hmm…” I hummed and rolled my eyes dramatically again. I was low-key enjoying this conversation with him and I hated myself for that.
“You know, it feels good to hear your voice again without you screaming down my face.” He said softly.
“Uh-huh? And who is the reason why I have to scream at you?” I queried.
“I know babe, I fucked up and I admit it. I was a big jerk, I just wish you would give me the chance to fix things, allow me to make things right between us.” He spoke in a soft deceptive voice.
“And why should I do that? You betrayed me, Jimmy. You cheated on me with an ugly thing and you were not even remorseful about it.” I blurted out, my emotions slowly taking charge. I could feel the power button on my little Brain, flickering off and on, I was about to get overwhelmed by emotions, in which case I wouldn’t be able to think straight.
“I know, babe. That is why I said I messed up big time; I don’t know why I acted so foolishly. You were the best thing to happen to me and yet I let you slip out of my palms. I regret every bit of it and wish I could change the past, but I cannot change that past, I can only try to fix the future.”
“I still love you so much, Anna. And I know that deep down, you also love me like you always did. This is not me trying to take advantage of your feelings; I just want to make up for my mistakes. So please give me a chance, Anna. Allow me to prove to you that I am deeply sorry for my actions and I want more than nothing, for us to be back together.” He pleaded.
I sighed, trying to switch my brain back on but to no avail. I didn’t want to make a decision from my heart or it might just lead me astray once again. What should I say? Everyone deserves another chance, don’t they? I mean… We are all humans and we do make mistakes.
“What do you say, Anna? Allow me make it up to you, and show you once again why I am the best man for you. Just pick a date and a venue, I have missed you so badly Anna, I just want to make things right between us, I will do whatever it takes.”
I blushed. Jimmy was never going to change with the sweet talk, he always knew my dummy buttons, he just needed to push them and have me play along. This is why I have avoided any sort of communication with him because he has such an influence on me that I am unable to refuse him.
“Fine, just one chance, and you better make it worth it. You wouldn’t be getting another.” I warned, feigning anger.
“Wow! Taking my call made my day, but accepting to meet me just made me the happiest man alive. This means the world to me, my pretty Ann. I love you so much, just tell me where and when and I will be there.” He assured me.
I laughed, feeling over my head. “Come to my place on the weekend, bring me a gift. Okay bye!” I said quickly and ended the call, as I felt shy.
I giggled excitedly to myself as I ended the call, happy to be reuniting with the love of my life. I don’t know if my delusion was worth it but I wanted to believe that this time would be different, he was going to value me this time. I not only now had a job but I didn’t rely on him anymore.
I was blushing so hard until the scent of my burning dinner hit my nose. “Oh my God!!” I yelled in a loud voice and rushed to the kitchen immediately.
I quickly brought down the burnt pasta from the fire and groaned. Love is going to put me in trouble, how did I forget I was cooking? Now I have to start afresh!!
I was still thinking of how to fix my dinner when my phone rang again. I checked the caller ID and it was Jennifer. I forgot about my dinner problems for one minute and quickly took the call.
“Hey Jenny, you can't believe what just happened!” I said excitedly.
“Anna, we have a problem.” Her words cut through mine.
“Huh? What do you mean?” I asked with the sound of my voice going down like the sun. What problem was she talking about?
“Okay… don’t get mad, I got in an accident!” She broke the news.
“YOU DID WHAAT?” I yelled at the top of my voice.