Sarah's pov
When I open my eyes, a strong light hits them, and I close them and again open them slowly to get gadgets with light.
I roam my eyes.
The place looked familiar, but then it hit me.
I am back at the clinic.
All the memories hit me hard.
I touch my flat belly.
My babies? Where are my babies?
Panicked, I looked around but found no one.
Where is everyone? Where are my kids?
I jerk myself up, and a sharp pain shoots through my abdominal area and hand. I looked down; saline was attached to the back of my palm, and something was bothering me on my face.
I touch it with my other hand and notice it's an oxygen mask.
I tried to take it out, but I felt too weak. I finally took it off and took a large amount of air into my lungs.
I look up, hearing a voice. Mam, please don't sit like this. You might break your stitches."
She pushed me back to my old position, and ignoring her, I spoke, "Where is Sean? And where are my babies?" I asked worryingly.
Ma'am, your babies are fine. Look there." She painted a curtain and pushed it back, and finally, two little munchkins came into my sight. Both were sleeping in a glass box.
"Are they alright?" I asked, still looking at them.
I noticed a few machines were connected to their box, which Dr .Yusuf had already informed us of.
They are premature; hence, they need life support right now.
"They are fine. Nothing to worry about" I heard her voice but did not look away.
"Is it a girl or boy?" I asked, still looking at them, and a smile never left my lips.
I wanted to run to them, shower them with kisses on their faces, and hug them tightly.
Tears brimmed in my eyes when a happy spark ran through my body.
So that's how a mother feels once she sees her babies for the first time.
"Both. You have a son and a daughter who is two minutes younger than your son." She spoke, and finally, I sobbed looking at them.
But my smile stopped, and my mind went black.
I looked at her, who was smiling but then looked at me in a questioning manner.
"Sean. Where is Sean?" I asked, and as if I had asked something unusual, she went pale.
Her gulping did not go unnoticed by me.
"I asked you something. Where is my husband?" I press each word.
Looking at her expression, my heart was sinking deep into darkness.
I was getting the vibe that was soothing us wrong.
"I asked you something." I spoke in a louder tone.
"Let me just call Dr .Yusuf, Saying she ran away while leaving me alone with my deadly thoughts.
Why did she run like this?
Is everything okay with Sean? Where is he?
My mind was fogged with questions, and my frustration was getting to its peak when I was not getting my answers.
My eyes were stuck at the door waiting for someone to come, and after some time, the doctor, Yusuf, came running.
"How are you feeling, Mrs. Hudson?" He came to my bed and spoke.
"Where..is..my..husband? Why is he not here when his wife and kids need him the most?" My voice broke in the middle while a sob broke through my vocal cord.
I know he won't leave us like this. He was there with me when no one else was. I always misunderstood him.
I know he loves us so much, and he won't leave us like this if he is fit and fine.
And the thought that something has happened to him is making me numb.
God has taken everyone who loves, but not Sean. Please do not take him.
Please, please don't do anything wrong.
He is my everything ,and if anything happened to him, I might not survive.
He has done so much for me.
We haven't even lived our lives. I want to be with him. I want to live my life with him and get old with him and my kids around.
"Please tell me he is fine. Please," I beg him.
He took a deep breath, and each second was killing me from inside.
"He is fine till now." Finally, he spoke, and I closed my eyes in relief, but then I caught up until now.
"What do you mean till now?" I stutter.
"He got two shots, and one touched his heart." The doctor spoke, and pity was the only thing I noticed on his face.
"And?" I asked further.
"He had massive blood loss and later internal bleeding. His blood pressure has dropped; hence, he has gone into a coma." He replied, and I felt as if a cold wind had hit my heart.
My body rose, and I shivered thinking about him.
My body started shaking, and I could hear some beeping sounds, but right now I am least interested in anything.
"Mrs .Hudson, look at me." He called out while I was feeling like I wasn't getting any air, and I felt breathless.
"Sarah, look at me. Look at you, babies; look here." He tabbed my cheeks, but I was long gone.
My mind is only thinking about Sean and nothing else.
Mumma's Voice reached my ear, and I recognized the voice.
Bella. My Bella.
My eyes followed the voice, and she was standing at the door with tears in her eyes. Her lips were wobbling, and she was trying to stop herself from crying.
She padded to me and stood next to my bed while my eyes followed her figure.
Mommy," I said, feeling her touch while she held my finger, just like she always does whenever she is scared.
My fingers curl up instantly around hers, and I give her a small smile.
My eyes slowly close while my thoughts are completely about my family.
Next, when I opened my eyes and heard some hustle and bustle around me, I found myself in the same place. When I look at my side and see my babies still sleeping in a glass box, Bella is looking at them with her twinkling eyes.
I could see how admiringly she was looking at them, and I instantly felt how lucky these two munchkins are to have an amazing sister, Bella.
I know she is going to love them so much.
My lips twisted, looking at their cute hats.
Pink and blue.
I am sure it must be Bella's idea.
But where did she get them? As far as I remember, I haven't done any shopping for the babies yet.
Maybe Sean might have done it.
Remembering Sean, all thoughts hit me like Strom, and tears pooled in my eyes.
"Alvera" I said, looking at her.
"Sarah," she whispers, and I can see she wasn't expecting me to be up.
She walked fast towards me and stood right in front of me while holding my hand.
She noticed I was looking at the babies.
"Congratulations," she said with a small smile while Bella ran to me, too.
"Mommy, did you see the babies? Oh, my god, they are so cute. Now I am a big sister." She spoke proudly, while I gave a small smile.
I so wanted to be happy with everything, but I don't know why happiness seems so far away.
"How is Sean?" I asked, looking at her hopefully.
Her smile dropped, and her gloomy face came back.
"He is fine." I look at the door, hearing Eric's voice. Nathan and Sam were standing, holding hands.
They walked to me. Sam was looking at me with a small smile, while Nathan was way too happy to see me. I look at Eric; he gives a glance to Alvera ,who was looking at him, and then I notice a bandage and his hand conned to cast.
'Did he also get shot?' I thought about looking at him.
"What happened to you?" I asked slowly.
I was feeling too weak.
"Nothing much .A bullet hit my bone. First, I thought it just passed through, but later I found out it was still inside, so I had to go through small surgery, and the doctor has stopped my movement with this cast." He showed me his cast, and I nodded to him.
I felt bad and guilty.
They all have to go through this just because of my stupidity. How I wish I had never run away from here.
"Is Sean out of danger?" I asked, looking at them.
"Not really, but at least his internal bleeding has stopped, so we are expecting he might gain his senses soon." She replied, and I nodded.