"Ms. Carosca, you're late. Thank you Sir isn't here yet if you don't have a job right now." Belinda opened up to me outside Magnus's office.
I just kept my gaze on the envelope I was holding.
"Are you still really calm? Oh Celiza. You haven't seen Sir get angry lately---"
I dropped the white envelope on the desk. He frowned at it.
"Please give it to Sir," I said.
“A-what is it?
Her eyes are full of questions.
"Resignation letter, Belinda." I said.
"You're going to resign? Why? You're almost a month away! You're just so new." I could feel the regret in the voice
I sighed. "I-it's necessary."
Because if I don't do it, the problem will only get worse and what happened before will happen again.
It doesn't have to happen because we're fine. Somehow we get on with life and I'm almost used to living a simple life.
While he was already successful. It was famous and rich, chased by women, unlike before. Everything he could get. Everything he wants will be immediately available to him.
The opposite of my life now. I don't want to experience the pain and bitterness that I try to forget.
I shouldn't have continued to be Magnus' secretary from the beginning.
Who did I fool?
He's successful now. Its standard has probably increased in women. He probably already has a girlfriend.
Fiance even, that bwiset Aira.
Of all the women, why is she still there ?!
Fuck him!
There's no chance that we could be together again. His mother hates me to the core.
Unlike Aira, his mom likes her so much.
So they are getting married.
Who would have thought that those two nerds would end up together?
I thought the nerd and the bad girl always end up together just like in novels and movies, I was wrong because it doesn't always go like that.
"Why? Did something bad happen?"
Tears pooled my eyes. Every time I remember what happened last night I burst into tears. Bwiset tears it! Not finished!
"W-nothing." I said, secretly wiping away the tears.
Her eyes narrowed. "Are you sure? Your eyes are wide."
"Were you scolded?"
"H-not just awake. As much as thinking. W-nothing happened to Belinda."
"Eh, why did you re-resign?"
I took a deep breath. "Maybe because I don't matter here." I smiled bitterly.
"What kind of reason is that?"
"Did Sir insult you? I told you earlier that he was normal for you ---"
I shook my head. "Not Belinda. I just really need it. Please give it to me. I'll go first. Sorry for the inconvenience. Thank you!"
He turned his back on it and quickly walked away without being distracted. Even though it hurts and it's hard to find a job, I will keep it in my mind that this is the right thing to do. I shouldn't have accepted this job in the first place.
"Wait a minute, Celiza!"
*******
"Are you serious there? Did you really resign?" he said on the other line.
I nodded.
"Are you crazy Celiza? How are you doing now? You haven't been paid yet, leave that right away!"
I sighed. If money were the only substitute for every sigh I would probably get rich using the day, especially now.
"M-maybe I can still go to the coffee shop ---"
"I'm not sure about that because Mrs. Hernandez immediately found a replacement for you. Unfortunately, there are many of us here."
Why am I such a fool ?!
You are poor Celiza but you are not desperate. The money is hard but the dignity that is left to me I will never get back.
"What's the problem? Why did you leave? Tito Alfredo's therapy isn't going well yet? How's Bliss's maintenance?"
I pursed my lips together. "H-I don't know Miranda."
I'm in too much of a hurry! All this time, after everything I've been through, I thought I can weigh decisions better now but I'm still impulsive. I didn’t even think about Bliss and Dad’s situation.
"I don't know about you! It's a big company. Your salary is high and your position is good but you resigned. You also have a problem, don't you?"
"You have a racket, don't you? That's all ---"
"Stop it! Haven't you been taken before? You're rude and almost vulgar!"
"I'll just be doubly careful ---"
"Even if you have to be very careful. There are still a lot of rude people in the world so I can't be complacent Celiza."
"Miranda ... This is the last time."
I pleaded.
"No! Even if you're still crying!"
I sighed.
"Babush, the number of customers is increasing. Be careful there. Don't worry, I'll ruin the new one to replace you." she joked.
I smiled at what it said. Yes, I want a job but I don't want to get it the wrong way.
"Silly!" I said, he was dropping the call. I miss her.
My smile faded when I realized my situation.
How do we do this?
*******
I found Mom in the living room, holding a tuting calculator, and also mirrored. The table was full of paper, it looked like it was bills of electricity, water and of the hospital.
"Why are you still here Celiza? You don't have a job anymore?"
"I resigned Mom."
Her eyes narrowed. "Why? What happened? That's a corporate job! Why did you resign?"
"The Morrisons own that company." I blurted.
Its eyes widened and stood up. "What ?! You mean you met his son?"
"Yes Mom."
"Then what happened? Is he your boss? Why did you just tell me this now? How many weeks have you been in there ---" I cut her off.
"It's not important anymore Mom. I resigned and it'll be effective immediately. They don't want to see me there so why would they waste my time?"
She sighed.
“Good then by the way…" She took off her glasses.
" Aurora and I met --- "
"You what?"
"Let me finish, Celiza."
"We met coincidentally. I didn't know she's the buyer of my orders. She ordered a lot. She's sorry for ignoring us before."
Coincidentally?
Or maybe it was intentional because it can't be a coincidence that Toci went to the coffee shop to talk to me. He must have told Mother our situation now.
"She doesn't want her family involved in issues. She doesn't know the bad things that happened to us today so she wants to help."
Help? Now that we are okay then they will help? What if you have a big problem again? They will disappear again when we need help.
They were the only ones we could approach during that time in the village, but they ignored us, treated us as strangers and cut off friendships and ties.
My eyes remained on her. I don’t like where this conversation is going. I can't believe Mom is letting this pass. Doesn't he remember the times he begged outside Toci's house but no one even paid attention to him. And now they will return as if nothing had happened.
"He even greeted me! He feels sorry for you and Toci. If you weren't separated because of the scandal ---"
"We owe a lot to Tita Aurora's family so I'll try to pay all that so we won't be trapped in debt--"
"Celiza! What are you saying?"
"I didn't regret that video Mom. Because of that I had the freedom to decide what I wanted. The misfortunes that happened to us made us a better person. We can't be dependent on their family. We have to cope with ourselves. just and we did it. "
"Yes we can do it alone but how long Celiza?"
I sighed.
"Have you met Toci yet? I'm sure when he sees you, his feelings will return ---"
"That's not what happened Mom."
Her eyes shined. "N-have you met yet?"
"Yes Mom."
"Good! You two can go back together ---"
"That's not going to happen Mom."
"Why is that? I heard that no one had a girlfriend when you separated. This is your chance now. After all, our family and they are fine ---" I cut her off.
"I'm going to go upstairs, Mom. I still have work to do."
"Tsk. You're just bitter. It's okay to go upstairs when you find a job online."
I sighed.
I dropped the body on the bed. I closed my eyes tightly. What Magnus's Mother said came back to me. There's no way in going back on that company.
Tsk, you thought Celiza was going to come back, maybe her Mother is having a party because she has completely taken me out of her son's life.
I sighed and grabbed my phone beside me. I opened my Facebook account. Maybe there’s hiring somewhere.
My forehead furrowed when I was notified of Toci's friend request to me.
"I want to help you."
Si Toci ...
He offered me a job the last time we saw each other.
I shook my head. Not allowed. I myself said that I did not want to communicate with his family.
But Bliss and Dad need their medication.
I want to be selfish even now, I want to be free from everything that is part of my past and suffering but what about my family if I choose to be selfish?
I sighed. Whatever!
I took the paper with his number on it, it's a good thing I didn't throw it away. I dialed his number.
My heart was pounding as it rang.
"Yes? Who's this?"
"It's me, Toci."
"Hey gorgeous. You finally called me after a week." He chuckled.
"So ... Why did you call me?"
"I'm in."
"What do you mean?"
"I'll take the job you offer."