Morning light filters through my narrow window, pale and unforgiving. I barely slept after the nightmare. Every time I closed my eyes, Cassandra's blade waited in the darkness, gleaming with cruel promise.
A knock sounds at my door. I flinch before I can stop myself, heart lurching painfully.
"Evelyn?" Sera's voice, calm and measured. "Are you awake?"
I cross the room on unsteady legs and open the door. Sera stands in the corridor, dressed in simple clothing rather than her usual observer's garb. The change softens her sharp features.
"I thought you might join me for tea this morning," she says. "My quarters are warmer than this drafty corner of the compound."
The invitation catches me off guard. After last night's vulnerability, I expected distance. Not this unexpected gesture of kindness.
"Why?" The question escapes before I can soften it.
"Because you look like you haven't eaten in days, and tea helps most things." She tilts her head slightly. "Unless you'd prefer to spend the morning alone with your thoughts?"
I consider refusing. Every instinct screams that this is a test—another way to extract information for Lord Draven. But I'm desperately tired of being alone.
"I'll come," I say, surprising myself with the decision.
Sera's quarters surprise me. Warm tapestries cover the stone walls, depicting dragons soaring over coastal cliffs. Dried herbs hang from ceiling beams, filling the air with pleasant fragrance. A small fire crackles in the hearth.
She gestures toward a cushioned chair near the fire. "Sit. I'll prepare the tea."
I settle into the chair, watching her move through the familiar ritual. The normalcy of it—kettle over flames, leaves measured into cups—soothes something raw inside me.
"You handled last night poorly," Sera says without turning around. "But you survived it. That counts for something."
"I fell apart in a corridor. That's hardly surviving."
"You didn't hurt yourself. You didn't run into the night. You let someone help you." She pours steaming water into ceramic cups. "Many can't manage even that much."
She brings the tea and settles across from me. The cup warms my cold fingers instantly.
"Tell me about your family," Sera says. "The real version. Not the story you've been telling everyone here."
My grip tightens on the cup. "I told you last night."
"You told me fragments. Terror-soaked pieces that don't form a complete picture." Her eyes hold mine steadily. "If you want this house to trust you, start by trusting us with the truth."
I stare into my tea, watching steam curl upward like escaping ghosts.
"They hated me," I whisper. "My parents, my sister—they all hated me from the moment I was born. I never understood why."
"Hatred rarely needs logic. What did they do to you?"
"Everything." The memories surface like poison. "My sister once told our weapons master I'd stolen from the armory. She planted evidence in my quarters. I was locked in the cellars for three days without food."
I swallow hard against the tightness in my throat. "When I emerged, she was wearing my grandmother's pendant—the one thing I treasured. My sister claimed I'd given it to her as an apology. They always believed her over me."
"But you trained anyway," Sera observes. "Your skills didn't develop from nothing."
"In secret. At night. Whenever I could steal moments without being caught." I set down my cup before my trembling hands spilled it. "I worked twice as hard as anyone, and it was never enough."
Sera sips her tea, letting silence stretch between us.
"And the dragons? Your family refused to let you bond?"
The question strikes too close to my hidden truth.
"They said I was unworthy. That no dragon would ever choose someone like me." Bitterness floods my throat. "My sister received everything—the egg, the betrothal, our parents' love. I received only contempt."
"Did you believe them?" Her question cuts deeper than she knows.
"Sometimes." The admission nearly chokes me. "When everyone tells you the same thing for years, believing otherwise becomes impossible."
Sera sets down her cup and leans forward. Her expression shifts to something almost maternal.
"Listen carefully, Evelyn. Such background changes how warriors carry themselves. Constant fear creates hesitation. It makes us second-guess instincts that should be automatic."
"I'm not hesitant—" The protest sounds weak even to my own ears.
"You are. I've watched you in the corridors. You move like someone waiting to be struck." She shakes her head slowly. "That conditioning doesn't disappear overnight."
"So I'm damaged." The words taste bitter on my tongue.
"I'm telling you that damage can be unlearned. The instincts your family broke can be rebuilt with time and effort." She pauses meaningfully. "Dragon or no dragon, skill matters. Plenty of riders prove their worth through combat long before they earn the right to seek an egg."
"I'm just a houseless rogue scrubbing your floors."
"You're a warrior pretending to be a servant. That catch in the training yard—" Sera's eyes sharpen. "You invested considerable time making yourself dangerous. Don't waste it hiding in the servants' quarters."
"What are you suggesting?" I ask carefully.
"Join the young riders in training. Prove yourself through strength rather than submission." She leans back. "It's the fastest way to earn standing in this High House. Show them what you're capable of."
My pulse quickens at the suggestion. Training openly. Fighting without hiding. The thought terrifies me—and thrills me in equal measure.
"Lord Draven watches me constantly. He'll think I'm positioning myself for something sinister."
"Lord Draven respects competence above all else. Show him you're useful, and his suspicion will transform into interest." A knowing look crosses her face. "Besides, he's already interested. He simply doesn't know what to do about it yet."
Heat crawls up my neck at her implication. I've felt his gaze following me through corridors. Seen how his eyes linger. But interest from Lord Draven is dangerous territory—a complication I cannot afford.
"The other trainees will reject me."
"Some will. Others won't." Sera rises to refill her cup. "You've spent your life earning love from people incapable of giving it. Perhaps it's time to stop seeking approval and start demanding respect."
The words land heavily in my chest. She's right. I've always approached belonging as something earned through making myself smaller. Invisible.
It never worked. Not in Mintia. Not here.
"When do training sessions begin?" The words leave my mouth before I can stop them.
Sera's lips curve with satisfaction. "This afternoon. Lieutenant Xavier leads the drills. Be there early, and don't hold back."
"And if I fail?" My voice comes out smaller than intended.
"Then you'll fail where everyone can see, and we'll find another path." She meets my eyes. "But I don't think you'll fail. I think you've been waiting your entire life for permission to succeed."
I finish my tea in silence. Through our bond, Aspis stirs with gentle warmth.
But as I rise to leave, one question burns brighter than all the others.
"Why help me at all?" I turn to face her. "You report to Lord Draven. I'm a stranger from enemy territory. What do you gain from any of this?"
Sera's expression shifts—something ancient and sad flickering behind her eyes.
"Because I was you once. Alone and broken, with nowhere left to run." Her voice drops to something almost gentle. "Someone in this house gave me a chance when I had nothing. I'm simply passing along the debt."
She holds my gaze for a long moment.
"Now go. Prove my investment wasn't wasted."